Terry94
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Hey, sorry if this is posted in the wrong area, I haven't used this site in years!
Anyway, onto my question. Growing up for me was horrible both my parents were abusive, my dad used to beat me physically resulting in me breaking my nose twice and my mum was emotional, telling me I should and I quote "go jump in front of a bus" or "play with the traffic" kill myself, I'm useless etc. It was horrible I was depressed and extremely suicidal, a few years ago I met my current girlfriend and I viewed it as a opportunity to finally leave home, even though we had been together a few weeks, I decided to leave (wanted to for my whole teenage years) the day I left my dad pulled a knife to me and said if I leave this house he will kill me, thankfully the police came and I left and I've never slept there again, see now his is the problem, I get on with my parents now, they're overly nice. Buying me things, giving me money and stuff, it just makes me think why wasn't they like this years ago.. anyway my question is I just can't stop thinking about the past and how they treated me I recently started going to visit them quite a lot and got them to drop me off around the corner they then started moaning asking why I don't want them to know where I live and since then I've started thinking about how they treated me, and how I feel guilty when they should I have no idea what to do.
Anyway, onto my question. Growing up for me was horrible both my parents were abusive, my dad used to beat me physically resulting in me breaking my nose twice and my mum was emotional, telling me I should and I quote "go jump in front of a bus" or "play with the traffic" kill myself, I'm useless etc. It was horrible I was depressed and extremely suicidal, a few years ago I met my current girlfriend and I viewed it as a opportunity to finally leave home, even though we had been together a few weeks, I decided to leave (wanted to for my whole teenage years) the day I left my dad pulled a knife to me and said if I leave this house he will kill me, thankfully the police came and I left and I've never slept there again, see now his is the problem, I get on with my parents now, they're overly nice. Buying me things, giving me money and stuff, it just makes me think why wasn't they like this years ago.. anyway my question is I just can't stop thinking about the past and how they treated me I recently started going to visit them quite a lot and got them to drop me off around the corner they then started moaning asking why I don't want them to know where I live and since then I've started thinking about how they treated me, and how I feel guilty when they should I have no idea what to do.