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Azariah

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[font=Georgia, serif]as I sink into this quicksand of sadness[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]the silence seems to seep into the mind[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]it’s madness[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]before I know it I’m lost in the blackness[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]surrounded by the dead once again[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]it’s back to lifelessness and darkness[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]it’s then I get detached from reality[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]I feel like I’m submerged under the sea[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]holding my breath for an eternity[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]slowly sinking into a never ending abyss[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]wishing I did not ever exist[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]that’s when the Last Enemy strikes[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]whispering in my ear giving me wicked advice[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]like if I should’ve never been born[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]then why not end my life?[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]“it’ll only take a little while”[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]“it’ll only last forever”[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]“it’ll only hurt a little while”[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]“it’s now! it’s now! or never!”[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]there I am staring at the mirror[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]tears in my eyes wishing I could see clearer[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]about to take my own life away[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]will this be my last day?[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]more questions come and fear grips my heart[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]what if I wake up tomorrow in a hospital bed[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]with more pain than what was at the start?[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]what if I wake and see loved ones with tears in their eyes?[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]and instead of having peace I’d have broken all their hearts?[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]these thoughts were enough to make me go even more insane![/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]I cried even harder at these thoughts[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]I cried so hard the pain grew stronger[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]I cannot go on living like this any longer[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]so with all my might I prayed to God[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]and begged him please if you’re really there[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]then show me at least that you care[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]and give me hope please make me stronger[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]I cannot run from pain any longer[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]it was then I slept into a slumber[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]and dreamt of peace and forgot my blunders[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]and then the darkness was gone and the storm was over[/font]
[font=Georgia, serif]and for this I thank the Lord Jehovah[/font]
 
Wow, that's a really sad poem. You really articulated what it feels like to be depressed and lonely. I hope that things get better for you, Azariah!
 

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