tone303
Well-known member
Been dysphoric and dysfunctional my whole life to the point of even doing horrible in school as a child
Have anhedonia and am bed ridden most of the time, with bouts of akathesia and anxiety attackes
dozens of medications with 12 doctors since 1996 were no help whatsoever -- currently on an MAOI that is no help whatoever. Can only lay in bed most of the time and completely dysfunction, feel suffering all of the time.
In the past when i could sometimes go out or have more activity, every social effort failed and every person i ever knew suddenly became hostile and abandoned overnight for no reason. Despite being ok socially and told by some i was the best person ever known. Very social by nature but forced into complete isolation, I have no friends no relationship and no ability to even use my voice now as there is no one to talk to. even people very close to in the past suddenly abandoned , just a sudden nonsensical overnight change and abandonment literally overnight.
every attempt ever to improve life failed , completely failure rate. Every drug, supplement, mental exercise or self help, meditation attempt, whathave you, failed. Nothing works and i experience only suffering daily. Life has been nothing but forced suffering despite every effort for years.
Now completely isolated and cant get out of bed much. Under doctor care but no help at all. Dont even know if there is a point to posting this.
sometimes i cant look at all the threads i posted or posted replies to and only do quick logins. its hard to even be online.
Have anhedonia and am bed ridden most of the time, with bouts of akathesia and anxiety attackes
dozens of medications with 12 doctors since 1996 were no help whatsoever -- currently on an MAOI that is no help whatoever. Can only lay in bed most of the time and completely dysfunction, feel suffering all of the time.
In the past when i could sometimes go out or have more activity, every social effort failed and every person i ever knew suddenly became hostile and abandoned overnight for no reason. Despite being ok socially and told by some i was the best person ever known. Very social by nature but forced into complete isolation, I have no friends no relationship and no ability to even use my voice now as there is no one to talk to. even people very close to in the past suddenly abandoned , just a sudden nonsensical overnight change and abandonment literally overnight.
every attempt ever to improve life failed , completely failure rate. Every drug, supplement, mental exercise or self help, meditation attempt, whathave you, failed. Nothing works and i experience only suffering daily. Life has been nothing but forced suffering despite every effort for years.
Now completely isolated and cant get out of bed much. Under doctor care but no help at all. Dont even know if there is a point to posting this.
sometimes i cant look at all the threads i posted or posted replies to and only do quick logins. its hard to even be online.