dazzle
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Hello,
I'm brand new to this forum and happened upon it while doing a search for a curiosity I have. I did find some related threads but felt that this was best started anew.
So, about a few days ago, I kind of just looked back on my adult life, and even on into my teens, and have a realization that I'm at most times, a walking ghost.
What I mean is, it's almost as if people don't even realize I'm around. (Obviously, yes, people interact with me and such), but whether it's on social media, online, in person, out and about, people generally do not really notice me. Even if they do notice me, people tend not to really engage me in true interaction.
Like yesterday, I was in a fast lane grocery line. The person ahead of me had chosen something that needed a price check, so there was this small window of awkward time for everyone just waiting for the grocery attendant to come back with a price. But the checker didn't look at me, she looked at the person behind me and said sorry for the wait. Then, as I was paying and all that, she like barely even acknowledged me, maybe glanced my way once. It was so strange, and yet, this happens to me a lot.
Even with relatives that I may not have seen for a long time. In a situation like that, again, it's as if I wasn't even in the room at all.
There are times here and there where people do see me, and acknowledge me, even say something complimentary, and it's nearly shocking that I don't even know what to say. I try to show my gratitude but I'm certain it mostly just comes out as an awkward gesture and a smile.
I guess it's just more of a curiosity to me than anything. I've come to accept it and sometimes I even like it, for the most part. I don't mind not being noticed because I'm not particularly big on social interaction. And maybe I unknowingly give that vibe off, but I can tell you that I always try to be polite to people and I generally smile, or at least in my mind, try to seem approachable.
But due to how I have lived my life, and the fact that I do go my own path, it can be a little lonely. I had a harder time with this years ago, but now that I'm coming to the age of 40 soon, I've felt myself being more comfortable with just me and happy to keep people at arms length.
Any thoughts on this? Similar scenarios?
I'm brand new to this forum and happened upon it while doing a search for a curiosity I have. I did find some related threads but felt that this was best started anew.
So, about a few days ago, I kind of just looked back on my adult life, and even on into my teens, and have a realization that I'm at most times, a walking ghost.
What I mean is, it's almost as if people don't even realize I'm around. (Obviously, yes, people interact with me and such), but whether it's on social media, online, in person, out and about, people generally do not really notice me. Even if they do notice me, people tend not to really engage me in true interaction.
Like yesterday, I was in a fast lane grocery line. The person ahead of me had chosen something that needed a price check, so there was this small window of awkward time for everyone just waiting for the grocery attendant to come back with a price. But the checker didn't look at me, she looked at the person behind me and said sorry for the wait. Then, as I was paying and all that, she like barely even acknowledged me, maybe glanced my way once. It was so strange, and yet, this happens to me a lot.
Even with relatives that I may not have seen for a long time. In a situation like that, again, it's as if I wasn't even in the room at all.
There are times here and there where people do see me, and acknowledge me, even say something complimentary, and it's nearly shocking that I don't even know what to say. I try to show my gratitude but I'm certain it mostly just comes out as an awkward gesture and a smile.
I guess it's just more of a curiosity to me than anything. I've come to accept it and sometimes I even like it, for the most part. I don't mind not being noticed because I'm not particularly big on social interaction. And maybe I unknowingly give that vibe off, but I can tell you that I always try to be polite to people and I generally smile, or at least in my mind, try to seem approachable.
But due to how I have lived my life, and the fact that I do go my own path, it can be a little lonely. I had a harder time with this years ago, but now that I'm coming to the age of 40 soon, I've felt myself being more comfortable with just me and happy to keep people at arms length.
Any thoughts on this? Similar scenarios?