Hello, I've been searching the internet for people in the same situation as me in hopes of finding advice, but there seems to be no one. I genuinely didn't want to end up sharing my life story on the internet, but I have nowhere to turn at this point.
My parents split approximately this time last year, and ever since then, my life has taken a bit of a downward spiral. My Father has always been a working man and gave his all to support us running his business while my family was still together, but my mom didn't like the fact that he wasn't always doing stuff with us. Not to my surprise, after a weekend away with one of my close friends last summer she told me that my Dad was moving out and they were getting a divorce. At first, I wasn't mad at all. I completely understood my parent's situation, and I viewed this as a new life with no negativity or yelling parents. Sigh. I was wrong.
About 2 weeks after my dad moved out, my mom's new boyfriend moved in. Yes, a whole 2 weeks. This infuriated both me and my 12-year-old brother, and my mom has always used the excuse "I was unhappy for 13 years in that marriage". The first month or so was fine with me, I did my best to respect both my mom and her boyfriend (Let's call him Carl) and this worked for a while. On the other hand, my brother (Let's call him Kim) would get in regular verbal fights with Carl and it quickly escalated to Kim punching Carl. Carl never fights back, but regularly yells at my brother calling him profane nicknames. Carl also always likes to mention how I don't have friends over at our house, but every time I have had one visit he screams at Kim. It's been hard keeping a decent social life.
Ever since Carl has been in my Mother's life, he has influenced her in a negative way. Me and my Mom used to get along wonderfully. I could talk to her about anything that was bothering me. Now, it feels as if she and Carl have trapped themselves away in their own little bubble - I can't talk to her or have any decent conversation unless Carl isn't home. I genuinely miss the way my mother was before all this happened. Carl essentially treats both me and my brother as if we're just burdens in the way of getting to my mom. I have attempted talking to them about how I feel a grand total of 1 time - this ended up in me literally getting verbally assaulted for a good 10 minutes, almost going deaf in one ear, getting avoided for 2 days until I "apologized to them", and then having to treat them like royalty all over again. In addition to all of this on the less important side, Carl started "renovating" our house. This began by tearing half of my room away and not patching up the giant gaping hole of drywall left behind. It's been four months. I've always prided myself on keeping a nice-looking room that I could practice piano and study quietly in, but now all I have left is enough room reasonable for a bed and a dresser. It's crowded and I barely have room for my belongings. Carl has also taken off my bedroom door twice and locked my bathroom. Is it just me, or is a 15-year-old female with no privacy for getting dressed a little odd? He has also locked up half of the rooms in our home (including rooms with some of my father's belongings that he would like back). I just wanted to live a positive life with my new "step-dad" and my mother.
I understand that I am a teenager and stereotyped as "lazy, ungrateful and parent-hating". Throughout my life, I have always been praised for being mature and a great student - but all of my motivation for this went away a little while after Carl scraped away a spot into my life. It got to a point in May of this year where I was admitted into a counseling regime to help me with my depression and really terrifying suicidal thoughts. Reflecting on what I have experienced a throughout my life in the past few years, I don't feel like living with my Mother and Carl is healthy for me.
Visiting my Dad and staying at his apartment is like a safe haven for me. I am treated with respect and unconditional love, and I can talk to him can talk about anything. My mom thinks the only reason I care for my dad and his apartment is because he "buys me things" and lets me "do whatever I want with no consequences". I still have to cook and clean up after people and work for what I want. The only difference is that I feel comfortable and genuinely loved when I am there.
My dad has brought up the option for me to live with him, as he is getting a new house very soon. I really would like to take this opportunity, but there are a variety of factors keeping me from doing so:
- I wouldn't be living with my little brother anymore. (Due to separate reasons, I cannot take him with me if I could)
- My Mom might somewhat disown me.
- I might propose this idea to my mom and her boyfriend and I will get screamed at, blamed and ridiculed. I am also scared to even bring it up.
- I would miss my Mother.
- I wouldn't be living with my cats. (Dad is allergic)
These are literally the only things keeping me from asking my Mother and Carl. I need some advice very soon, as my Mom and Dad are getting a final separation agreement next month and my grade 10 year starts around the same time as that. My birthday is also in 3 days. I would like to start fresh this incoming school year if this is a good idea.
Thank you for reading.
My parents split approximately this time last year, and ever since then, my life has taken a bit of a downward spiral. My Father has always been a working man and gave his all to support us running his business while my family was still together, but my mom didn't like the fact that he wasn't always doing stuff with us. Not to my surprise, after a weekend away with one of my close friends last summer she told me that my Dad was moving out and they were getting a divorce. At first, I wasn't mad at all. I completely understood my parent's situation, and I viewed this as a new life with no negativity or yelling parents. Sigh. I was wrong.
About 2 weeks after my dad moved out, my mom's new boyfriend moved in. Yes, a whole 2 weeks. This infuriated both me and my 12-year-old brother, and my mom has always used the excuse "I was unhappy for 13 years in that marriage". The first month or so was fine with me, I did my best to respect both my mom and her boyfriend (Let's call him Carl) and this worked for a while. On the other hand, my brother (Let's call him Kim) would get in regular verbal fights with Carl and it quickly escalated to Kim punching Carl. Carl never fights back, but regularly yells at my brother calling him profane nicknames. Carl also always likes to mention how I don't have friends over at our house, but every time I have had one visit he screams at Kim. It's been hard keeping a decent social life.
Ever since Carl has been in my Mother's life, he has influenced her in a negative way. Me and my Mom used to get along wonderfully. I could talk to her about anything that was bothering me. Now, it feels as if she and Carl have trapped themselves away in their own little bubble - I can't talk to her or have any decent conversation unless Carl isn't home. I genuinely miss the way my mother was before all this happened. Carl essentially treats both me and my brother as if we're just burdens in the way of getting to my mom. I have attempted talking to them about how I feel a grand total of 1 time - this ended up in me literally getting verbally assaulted for a good 10 minutes, almost going deaf in one ear, getting avoided for 2 days until I "apologized to them", and then having to treat them like royalty all over again. In addition to all of this on the less important side, Carl started "renovating" our house. This began by tearing half of my room away and not patching up the giant gaping hole of drywall left behind. It's been four months. I've always prided myself on keeping a nice-looking room that I could practice piano and study quietly in, but now all I have left is enough room reasonable for a bed and a dresser. It's crowded and I barely have room for my belongings. Carl has also taken off my bedroom door twice and locked my bathroom. Is it just me, or is a 15-year-old female with no privacy for getting dressed a little odd? He has also locked up half of the rooms in our home (including rooms with some of my father's belongings that he would like back). I just wanted to live a positive life with my new "step-dad" and my mother.
I understand that I am a teenager and stereotyped as "lazy, ungrateful and parent-hating". Throughout my life, I have always been praised for being mature and a great student - but all of my motivation for this went away a little while after Carl scraped away a spot into my life. It got to a point in May of this year where I was admitted into a counseling regime to help me with my depression and really terrifying suicidal thoughts. Reflecting on what I have experienced a throughout my life in the past few years, I don't feel like living with my Mother and Carl is healthy for me.
Visiting my Dad and staying at his apartment is like a safe haven for me. I am treated with respect and unconditional love, and I can talk to him can talk about anything. My mom thinks the only reason I care for my dad and his apartment is because he "buys me things" and lets me "do whatever I want with no consequences". I still have to cook and clean up after people and work for what I want. The only difference is that I feel comfortable and genuinely loved when I am there.
My dad has brought up the option for me to live with him, as he is getting a new house very soon. I really would like to take this opportunity, but there are a variety of factors keeping me from doing so:
- I wouldn't be living with my little brother anymore. (Due to separate reasons, I cannot take him with me if I could)
- My Mom might somewhat disown me.
- I might propose this idea to my mom and her boyfriend and I will get screamed at, blamed and ridiculed. I am also scared to even bring it up.
- I would miss my Mother.
- I wouldn't be living with my cats. (Dad is allergic)
These are literally the only things keeping me from asking my Mother and Carl. I need some advice very soon, as my Mom and Dad are getting a final separation agreement next month and my grade 10 year starts around the same time as that. My birthday is also in 3 days. I would like to start fresh this incoming school year if this is a good idea.
Thank you for reading.