Gav,
I don't know if I'm the best person to be giving advice. I live with my parents, no job, age 32. I'm enmeshed in the mental health system. I can't speak very highly of the mental health system; but, at the same time, I'm not sure things would be better with out it. It's a love hate relationship I guess.
My one thought to you was looking into a, 'life coach'. I'm going to keep this brief because, I really can't even help myself too much right now; but, you have to get out there. I can't hide from the world, you can't hide from the world. We can try; but, eventually one day, some one is gunna drag is kicking and screaming out into the light of the world.
Doing voulunteer work may be a way to get out there and meet people; but, it doesn't earn money, still it gets you out of the house. Having no skills is okay so long as you can move your body and do work. Lots of jobs require no skills and will train you. Anyway, don't give up man. Planning to kill yourself cause you see no way out, to me, is a horrible way to spend the rest of your life. I've thought that way and think that way some times; but, it leaves so little of life left to enjoy. It's like your dead already...
Try to do a visual map. Write it out on paper. Break everything into smaller pieces...
The goal is sustaining your own existence or at the very least finding some security in your existence. Then break that one into smaller peices. 1. holding down a job. Finding a place to live. Getting a car or a bike/ etc... Meeting people. Creating meaningful realationships. Getting/finding help. Finding joy in life, even if it's just a little, day by day.
Break it all down into smaller and smaller pieces and chip away at it. Hope to. Believe.
Look into a, 'life coach', if it's possible. Look into classes at college if you can manage that. Look into part-time or full-time work to start saving away money while you still do live with your parents. Craigslist almost always has people willing to rent out a room in there house with utilities paid for a reasonable price. Roommates can be found to live with. Shitty jobs can be worked. Promotions can be achieved. Higher-education and further learning can put you farther ahead.
If you are ******* serious about facing life and getting out there, ask the mods to delete your account and change your name on this forum. Check out the chat room. I hope you have the motivation and the desire to make things happen. Some times you can NOT do everything on your own. Some times you need help. Try to find it if you need it.
GOOD LUCK. DON'T GIVE UP. TRY NOT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR PRECIOUS BEAUTIFUL LIFE THINKING SOME DAY YOU'll JUST KILL YOURSELF. DON'T BE AFRAID TO LIVE! WE ALL HAVE TO DIE; BUT, NOT EVERYONE LIVES BEFORE THEY GET THERE. LIVE! SCARE THE honeysuckle OUT YOURSELF. BE AFRAID. LOOK FEAR IN THE EYES AND SAY, "SWALLOW ME WHOLE YOU ******* *******. I'M READY!" GET OUT THERE AND ******* MAKE YOUR LIFE WORK. BE THE KIND OF MAN A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN COULD LOVE AND COME HOME TO. WAKE UP EVERY MORNING AND IMAGINE HER FACE, IMAGINE HER BEAUTY (whatever that beauty is to you), AND SAY, I CAN'T WWAAIITT TO MEET YOU!
DON'T GIVE UP. DON'T WAIT TO DIE, IT WILL COME SOON ENOUGH WHETHER YOU WANT IT TO OR NOT. BELIEVE. HOPE. LOVE YOURSELF EVEN JUST THE TINIEST BIT, EVERY DAY YOU CAN MANAGE TO. FACE FEAR. SEEK HELP WHEN YOU NEED IT. DO IT MAN!
I've also always said, "one should be wary of taking advice from some one who doesn't follow it themselves." Do I take the advice I've given you? Maybe some of it, maybe not; but, there are some truths, in there I think. Some of which I'd rather not think about myself; but, life is beautiful. Fear can be soul crushing.
As for me, today I walked a mile to corner-store. I was afraid; but, I conquered that fear, even if just for today. so...
Good luck!
