[font=Raleway, Tahoma, Arial,]Hello to the community, I have found this site and decided to register. I was born in december 1990 and I live in Belgrade/Serbia. I am very desperate guy and my mental strength is very low, sometimes I am sick of myself and sometimes I kind of like being miserable. Whatever I start doing I cant endure in it, on first obstacle my will just dissapear, negative thoughts just start to pour in my head. Tried to do kickboxing but quit that because I lost a job in that period, tried to do gym but after 5 months of literally no results I quit, guy (former best friend) who started same day as me and similar supplements, gained 5 kg of pure muscles and it is killing me. Whatever I try to do is not enough no matter how hard I struggle to better myself, I dont have low self esteem, I dont even know what it is. My mother mocked me that I have narrow shoulders like a grann y when I was little kid, and she constantly criticize me, and my father mocked me how I got beaten every time I had fights in school, that was the start of my self "hate". Everybody of my age already have a decent car, nice long relationship or married, I cant even hookup with ugly girl because I think I sound like a wimp or whatever I dont know anymore. I had suicidal thoughts but luckily those thoughts vanished quickly. So I ended up going to work and then straight going home for last 3 years, no dates, no new people, no money, no friends and I think even my parents dont expect me to have kids and get married...what is wrong with me[/font]