Hi everyone, i have joined this forum hoping for a listening ear and some advices...
I'm 28 yo and I'm a veterinarian, not currently on work. In fact , the past two years i had a non pleasant internship experience . That turned down my confidence , my self-esteem. Now , I'm losing my friends and "maybe" I'm breaking up with my boyfriend.
Previously, I have been so energetic, enthusiastic and so unstoppable...Currently I realized that I've become so lifeless ,unpassionate and so vulnerable...exactly the opposite ! It's clear that this unpleasant change up is the result of small , unremarkable, customary habits ! Who I am today and how happy and fulfilled I am is definitely the result of my thoughts and actions from yesterday !! But how did I get here? No idea , I wasn't aware.
I'm going through days where I feel like that I'm not really living, but merely existing. I feel so empty and lost on the inside. Everyday I stay up late at night, mulling over things that I know won't get me anywhere rewarding. Every single night I cry and I ask myself the same question, what am I doing to myself ?! I know something is wrong. I want to change my situation for the better , but I just feel so emotionally charged and tired that I bearley can do something...if I was in the shoes of somebody else I would definitely say that those are just excuses... Absolutely right, I'm making excuses.
I don't know what to do and from where to start ...please help
I'm 28 yo and I'm a veterinarian, not currently on work. In fact , the past two years i had a non pleasant internship experience . That turned down my confidence , my self-esteem. Now , I'm losing my friends and "maybe" I'm breaking up with my boyfriend.
Previously, I have been so energetic, enthusiastic and so unstoppable...Currently I realized that I've become so lifeless ,unpassionate and so vulnerable...exactly the opposite ! It's clear that this unpleasant change up is the result of small , unremarkable, customary habits ! Who I am today and how happy and fulfilled I am is definitely the result of my thoughts and actions from yesterday !! But how did I get here? No idea , I wasn't aware.
I'm going through days where I feel like that I'm not really living, but merely existing. I feel so empty and lost on the inside. Everyday I stay up late at night, mulling over things that I know won't get me anywhere rewarding. Every single night I cry and I ask myself the same question, what am I doing to myself ?! I know something is wrong. I want to change my situation for the better , but I just feel so emotionally charged and tired that I bearley can do something...if I was in the shoes of somebody else I would definitely say that those are just excuses... Absolutely right, I'm making excuses.
I don't know what to do and from where to start ...please help