Hi,
This is my first time posting here. I'm so sad and lonely because I don't have a single person in my life who cares about me. The only person who I ever thought loved me was my ex partner, we were together for ten years but now he has ended things and living in a different country. He was out dating just three days after we broke up which has made me question the entire relationship, I had suspected that he was just with me for the sake of being in a relationship rather than for actually loving me. Now I know it must be true.
I have moved back in with my grandmother but she is a very cold and ucaring person after having a difficult upbringing, and one of her favourite past times is pitting people against each other especially different family memebers. I moved out of my mothers home at 16 and have barely seen her since, I am now 33.
I have absolutely zero friends or even acquaintances, there is nobody I could even just grab a coffee or go shopping with. My life has always been like this. I had just a couple of time periods in primary school where I had a friend but was dumped. The same thing happened at secondary school. So basically I haven't had a single friend since I was 14.
I really feel like I am at breaking point now, I've never wanted to be super popular, but I really wish I could make just one or two meaningful friendships so I could appreciate life a bit more.
This is my first time posting here. I'm so sad and lonely because I don't have a single person in my life who cares about me. The only person who I ever thought loved me was my ex partner, we were together for ten years but now he has ended things and living in a different country. He was out dating just three days after we broke up which has made me question the entire relationship, I had suspected that he was just with me for the sake of being in a relationship rather than for actually loving me. Now I know it must be true.
I have moved back in with my grandmother but she is a very cold and ucaring person after having a difficult upbringing, and one of her favourite past times is pitting people against each other especially different family memebers. I moved out of my mothers home at 16 and have barely seen her since, I am now 33.
I have absolutely zero friends or even acquaintances, there is nobody I could even just grab a coffee or go shopping with. My life has always been like this. I had just a couple of time periods in primary school where I had a friend but was dumped. The same thing happened at secondary school. So basically I haven't had a single friend since I was 14.
I really feel like I am at breaking point now, I've never wanted to be super popular, but I really wish I could make just one or two meaningful friendships so I could appreciate life a bit more.