Baka
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Needless to say, this is making me very anxious and depressed. Growing up, this was always my favorite time of year. I just loved everything about it and still do, even though things have changed. To be honest, I've probably changed the most and not always for the better.
Since my mid twenties (32 now) I've been pushing people away more and more. I remember even thinking now and then that I could easily be alone over this period and in general. Looking back now, I was a fool. I don't want to be alone like this.
I should and could have done a lot more to stop myself from chipping away at my life. To make matters worse, I'm unemployed at the moment and have been for a while, so I think that's just fuel on the fire.
I had the option of going with my mom to my grandmother's, where a few people will be. I declined and now regret that. I'm thinking I should just go, even though it would be a long drive my with dogs in mind.
Has anyone else here, with the same tendency of pushing people away, been able to turn things around?
Since my mid twenties (32 now) I've been pushing people away more and more. I remember even thinking now and then that I could easily be alone over this period and in general. Looking back now, I was a fool. I don't want to be alone like this.
I should and could have done a lot more to stop myself from chipping away at my life. To make matters worse, I'm unemployed at the moment and have been for a while, so I think that's just fuel on the fire.
I had the option of going with my mom to my grandmother's, where a few people will be. I declined and now regret that. I'm thinking I should just go, even though it would be a long drive my with dogs in mind.
Has anyone else here, with the same tendency of pushing people away, been able to turn things around?