letsmakefriends
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I have just finished therapy. After being 7 months in it. It was my 6th therapist. I was thinking that finally i encountered on therapist i can trust to. I liked her for her wise questions. She was rather a cold person but very smart.
Problems started when i told her that she finish sessions in a very strange way. She would stand up quickly saying "we have to finish" like i would like to steal her 1 minute more. I told her that it upsets me and she answered me that she will do something about it. On our next meeting she said that i am coming 5 minutes before session starts.I was always 5 minutes earlier so i was suprised that she raised that subject after so many months. She said that she didnt tell it because she was waiting how it will go. I felt that it is bullshit but i said to her that if she feels insecure about counting how much time will be left i will come on time. I thought it is really strange because she can finish 5 minutes earlier and it wont make any diffrence really. I thought that she was just mean for what i said about her standing up in such a rude way. The way she was speaking was so dishonest.
I came angry for out next meeeting and i shared my doubts with her.She kept saying some nonsense but i let go. I felt that i do not deserve it tho. On our third meeting finally i decided to come and talk to her and possibly finish our therapy.
On the day i just asked her did she care about me. Because i just felt like a client. I was just saying what i feel and refraining from being caught into her explanations.I expected her at least saying-Yes you are a client and what do you expect from me...but what i can give you is honesty and readiness to help in a best way i can.
Instead she used excuses that i was let down by other people, i have trust issues and she wants a chance so we can keep going with therapy.. She said that she do care about me, she thinks about my problems ( she said which ones like i would not know)etc....But this dishonesty....i felt pain and dissapointment but I was just observing how many mistakes she makes in saying things..I was looking at her face which was very controlled. She was manipulating, i had no doubts
But now i am not sure...Maybe i do have trust issues and it affect me like she said. I cant even finish therapy. And i had 6 of them.
But maybe i feel so lonely that i do not care if she lies or not.
Any thoughts? Experiences?
I forgot to add the most important thing in my decision
I was looking for a job at the time and i told her how much salary i was offered by one company. Her reaction( strange fake, laugh of kind ' i have you" , she could not have hidden it althought she tried)
During our therapy she kept saying that i need at least 2 sessions per week. But i had not enough money but i was thinking how to get enough money for her. I cant believe i might have been so conned by her.
Problems started when i told her that she finish sessions in a very strange way. She would stand up quickly saying "we have to finish" like i would like to steal her 1 minute more. I told her that it upsets me and she answered me that she will do something about it. On our next meeting she said that i am coming 5 minutes before session starts.I was always 5 minutes earlier so i was suprised that she raised that subject after so many months. She said that she didnt tell it because she was waiting how it will go. I felt that it is bullshit but i said to her that if she feels insecure about counting how much time will be left i will come on time. I thought it is really strange because she can finish 5 minutes earlier and it wont make any diffrence really. I thought that she was just mean for what i said about her standing up in such a rude way. The way she was speaking was so dishonest.
I came angry for out next meeeting and i shared my doubts with her.She kept saying some nonsense but i let go. I felt that i do not deserve it tho. On our third meeting finally i decided to come and talk to her and possibly finish our therapy.
On the day i just asked her did she care about me. Because i just felt like a client. I was just saying what i feel and refraining from being caught into her explanations.I expected her at least saying-Yes you are a client and what do you expect from me...but what i can give you is honesty and readiness to help in a best way i can.
Instead she used excuses that i was let down by other people, i have trust issues and she wants a chance so we can keep going with therapy.. She said that she do care about me, she thinks about my problems ( she said which ones like i would not know)etc....But this dishonesty....i felt pain and dissapointment but I was just observing how many mistakes she makes in saying things..I was looking at her face which was very controlled. She was manipulating, i had no doubts
But now i am not sure...Maybe i do have trust issues and it affect me like she said. I cant even finish therapy. And i had 6 of them.
But maybe i feel so lonely that i do not care if she lies or not.
Any thoughts? Experiences?
I forgot to add the most important thing in my decision
I was looking for a job at the time and i told her how much salary i was offered by one company. Her reaction( strange fake, laugh of kind ' i have you" , she could not have hidden it althought she tried)
During our therapy she kept saying that i need at least 2 sessions per week. But i had not enough money but i was thinking how to get enough money for her. I cant believe i might have been so conned by her.