Hectate2
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Hello members of this forum,
I dont know what to say or why i am here but i will introduce myself.
I am a 20 year old male living in holland and i work in IT.
I have lots of people around me and people who come by regularly but i still feel alone.
When it comes to social construct i am allways at the bottom.
In groups of friends im allways the one who gets teased and called names altough i act like i dont care or turn it into a joke.
I have a decent job to support myself altough i work 32 hours to get trough the week.
I still feel worthless and i have nothing to live for. i hate myself and my place in society.
I feel like im trapped i dont want te be social with my "Friends" but im forcing myself to go because i am too afraid to just cut off contact imidiatly also i work with one of them.
I wish i could just close my windows and doors stay inside and never come out. I dont want to be part of this world anymore and just rot away at home.
Thank you for spending your time reading this its a bit long.
TLDR: Just another loser with a story.
I dont know what to say or why i am here but i will introduce myself.
I am a 20 year old male living in holland and i work in IT.
I have lots of people around me and people who come by regularly but i still feel alone.
When it comes to social construct i am allways at the bottom.
In groups of friends im allways the one who gets teased and called names altough i act like i dont care or turn it into a joke.
I have a decent job to support myself altough i work 32 hours to get trough the week.
I still feel worthless and i have nothing to live for. i hate myself and my place in society.
I feel like im trapped i dont want te be social with my "Friends" but im forcing myself to go because i am too afraid to just cut off contact imidiatly also i work with one of them.
I wish i could just close my windows and doors stay inside and never come out. I dont want to be part of this world anymore and just rot away at home.
Thank you for spending your time reading this its a bit long.
TLDR: Just another loser with a story.