Im not too lonely but.....

Im happily married. aged 61. No kids. Nice dog though.
I need to work on friendships and relationships with family. I think I may suffer a common malaise called "arrogance". Now deep down of course it is insecurity and a feeling of inferiority.
I didn't quite make it career wise. Nor have kids.
Watching Jordan Peterson makes me feel guilty. That I didn't own my problems. I didn't take responsibility. I beat myself up daily everyday. So I can easily go to sleep at 8.00pm at night and wake up around 5.00am.
Ive resorted to social media. But ive started to hate the person ive become online. Almost a  narcissist. But I do take interest in other people. I have a nice side, a gentle side even. My wife and dog see it mostly. But you wont see it much on here (subject to edit )nor the people I meet at work nor my family.
My family is a big theme for me. Ive deliberately lived thousands of miles from them. Trouble is now I cant afford to visit them. And I have a big family. If they all start dying soon I cant afford to attend funerals.
Did I mention I suffer anxiety? and the occasional panic attack? yeah I guess from the tone of this post you guessed Im a born worry wart.

Your intro expresses a lot and does it very articulately. I'm glad you're on this forum.
I didn't quite make it career wise either. Nor have any kids. Didn't get married either. And I'm 4 years older than you....

thanks. how is this forum by the way? does it get busy?

humourless said:

thanks. how is this forum by the way? does it get busy?

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Not at all. Unless you like the same inane forum 'games' day in and day out. There isn't much actual discussion here anymore.

Enpatsu No Shakugan said:

humourless said:

thanks. how is this forum by the way? does it get busy?

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Not at all. Unless you like the same inane forum 'games' day in and day out. There isn't much actual discussion here anymore.

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Oh I see. That is a shame. do you recommend another forum? (sorry mods and admin)

humourless said:

Enpatsu No Shakugan said:

humourless said:

thanks. how is this forum by the way? does it get busy?

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Not at all. Unless you like the same inane forum 'games' day in and day out. There isn't much actual discussion here anymore.

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Oh I see. That is a shame. do you recommend another forum? (sorry mods and admin)

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I think that's a bit extreme. You're welcome to add to more discussions. More members with an interest in communication is the best way to change things.

I hope you stay. I like what you've added thus far.

but i feel too lonely here
(joke)

Welcome!

You're the first self-proclaimed arrogant person I've met that admits that deep down it's a feeling of insecurity and inferiority. You're displaying humility and courage coming here. Good to have you here.

Raph said:

Welcome!

You're the first self-proclaimed arrogant person I've met that admits that deep down it's a feeling of insecurity and inferiority. You're displaying humility and courage coming here. Good to have you here.

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where's the like button? I cant find it......

Hey humourless, welcome aboard. I get the gist that you might be your harshest critic. I've recently begun embracing self-forgiveness. It's been unexpectedly liberating. Prayers bro.

humourless said:

I think I may suffer a common malaise called "arrogance". Now deep down of course it is insecurity and a feeling of inferiority.

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It's obvious, believe me.

humorless said:

 But ive started to hate the person ive become online. Almost a  narcissist.

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Might want to catch yourself then, because I do believe it's resurfacing again.

Cant say im obsessed enough about you to investigate all your threads. sleep tight

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Cant say im obsessed enough about you to investigate all your threads. sleep tight

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You're in dire need of some feedback as of late. Enjoy.

i tried to take this forum seriously. i really tried.

RIP