Naizo
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- Feb 1, 2016
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Just starting to feel less inclined to join in on things, the shows I watch don't really entertain me as much anymore and video games are all turning into mobile game style micro transaction turd fests, so those are annoying just by their own nature.
Don't really have any motivation to try and get into a relationship, don't really trust women in general but that's on me. I do have a bit of paranoia that they're out to get me, for one reason or another but it's unrelated to any relationship, it just makes it hard for me to trust anyone which makes it hard to even entertain the idea of starting a relationship. It's harder when if a woman is flirting with me, they start acting shady about certain honeysuckle like their past, then I definitely shut them down as well. I get that it may be honeysuckle they aren't proud of and that's probably all it is, but they have their quirks and I have mine.
Firm believer in that if you feel strongly for someone/something you should go "entertain yourself" before making any decisions, and haven't felt anything real for anyone in a long time either. Don't really even get horny anymore, so I don't even have to really bother looking up porn to get rid of that desire, I just don't have that desire.
About the only time I'm close to happy is when I'm at work talking honeysuckle with my co workers, but they're not always into my humor or my jokes which is fair.
I don't draw anymore, it just caused me a ton of back and neck pain over the years so now if I do try it just frustrates me and causes me pain.
People allude to me being a bad person in one way or another, but I haven't done anything to anyone so that kind've just sucks.
I go behind people at work and clean up after them and I wouldn't, but if I don't I'm usually the one that gets blamed anyways, and bosses don't give a **** about excuses or he said she said. So that sucks. If I tell the other employee to do it themselves they'll just say "If you don't like how I do it, you do it yourself." So I end up doing that.
I'm a supporter of legalizing marijuana and cannabis in general for adult use, and I try to stay up to date on things despite not smoking it myself. So seeing people try to legalize mushrooms and stuff in these stats where weed is legal just makes me feel like my home state is inferior as they struggle to even come to terms with some form of medical legalization. There are plenty of folk who still don't agree with same sex marriages where I live, so it doesn't surprise me but it is saddening. Not to compare wanting the freedom to imbibe a drug to the right to love someone, but to say that people here have trouble maturing in a cultural way with the rest of the nation. I don't have the money to even go visit somewhere that it's legal to see what it's like and make an informed opinion about it all. That kind've saddens me to feel very strongly about something but not have any way to support it feasibly. It's extremely hard to have any pride for my home when I agree with almost none of their deeply held values.
It's just a down point in my life at the moment, and i'm just ranting to get it off my chest and out of my head. I'm sure if I just keep being me and doing my best it'll turn around eventually. Happy and proud of myself that I don't feel anywhere near as empty as I used to, but still not completely put together.
Don't really have any motivation to try and get into a relationship, don't really trust women in general but that's on me. I do have a bit of paranoia that they're out to get me, for one reason or another but it's unrelated to any relationship, it just makes it hard for me to trust anyone which makes it hard to even entertain the idea of starting a relationship. It's harder when if a woman is flirting with me, they start acting shady about certain honeysuckle like their past, then I definitely shut them down as well. I get that it may be honeysuckle they aren't proud of and that's probably all it is, but they have their quirks and I have mine.
Firm believer in that if you feel strongly for someone/something you should go "entertain yourself" before making any decisions, and haven't felt anything real for anyone in a long time either. Don't really even get horny anymore, so I don't even have to really bother looking up porn to get rid of that desire, I just don't have that desire.
About the only time I'm close to happy is when I'm at work talking honeysuckle with my co workers, but they're not always into my humor or my jokes which is fair.
I don't draw anymore, it just caused me a ton of back and neck pain over the years so now if I do try it just frustrates me and causes me pain.
People allude to me being a bad person in one way or another, but I haven't done anything to anyone so that kind've just sucks.
I go behind people at work and clean up after them and I wouldn't, but if I don't I'm usually the one that gets blamed anyways, and bosses don't give a **** about excuses or he said she said. So that sucks. If I tell the other employee to do it themselves they'll just say "If you don't like how I do it, you do it yourself." So I end up doing that.
I'm a supporter of legalizing marijuana and cannabis in general for adult use, and I try to stay up to date on things despite not smoking it myself. So seeing people try to legalize mushrooms and stuff in these stats where weed is legal just makes me feel like my home state is inferior as they struggle to even come to terms with some form of medical legalization. There are plenty of folk who still don't agree with same sex marriages where I live, so it doesn't surprise me but it is saddening. Not to compare wanting the freedom to imbibe a drug to the right to love someone, but to say that people here have trouble maturing in a cultural way with the rest of the nation. I don't have the money to even go visit somewhere that it's legal to see what it's like and make an informed opinion about it all. That kind've saddens me to feel very strongly about something but not have any way to support it feasibly. It's extremely hard to have any pride for my home when I agree with almost none of their deeply held values.
It's just a down point in my life at the moment, and i'm just ranting to get it off my chest and out of my head. I'm sure if I just keep being me and doing my best it'll turn around eventually. Happy and proud of myself that I don't feel anywhere near as empty as I used to, but still not completely put together.