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Phantimos
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Hello everyone
I have recently been further diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder(GAD) through multiple therapy sessions. After listening to my therapist list the symptoms of GAD, i was a bit taken back by how almost every symptom (12 out of 13 i think) applied to me. The constant worrying, heart palpitations, panic attacks, assuming others intent, jumping to conclusions, over-analyzing situations (Social and otherwise), constant and persistent self critical thinking, and the idea that i am never good enough have been a part of my life for over a decade now.
I am also bipolar and during my low days i find myself unable of leaving my room. I pace back and forth, going over the things i know i need to do and growing more anxious knowing i am not doing them. I play video games mindlessly like a zombie in order to avoid thinking instead of facing my anxious thoughts. When all fails, i lay on my bed on the verge of tears thinking how worthless my life, my existence is. I have this feeling in chest that i can only describe as a cold weight that removes all my motivation to do anything. I have lost count of how many times i thought of the release of death.
However, the most debilitating symptom of all and one of the reasons i am starting this thread, feeling like i am all alone in this, even though i know that anxiety affects more and more people these days. I am creating this thread on the hope that some of you, anyone, struggling with GAD shares their story.
I am tired of feeling alone.
Thank you and have a nice day.
I have recently been further diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder(GAD) through multiple therapy sessions. After listening to my therapist list the symptoms of GAD, i was a bit taken back by how almost every symptom (12 out of 13 i think) applied to me. The constant worrying, heart palpitations, panic attacks, assuming others intent, jumping to conclusions, over-analyzing situations (Social and otherwise), constant and persistent self critical thinking, and the idea that i am never good enough have been a part of my life for over a decade now.
I am also bipolar and during my low days i find myself unable of leaving my room. I pace back and forth, going over the things i know i need to do and growing more anxious knowing i am not doing them. I play video games mindlessly like a zombie in order to avoid thinking instead of facing my anxious thoughts. When all fails, i lay on my bed on the verge of tears thinking how worthless my life, my existence is. I have this feeling in chest that i can only describe as a cold weight that removes all my motivation to do anything. I have lost count of how many times i thought of the release of death.
However, the most debilitating symptom of all and one of the reasons i am starting this thread, feeling like i am all alone in this, even though i know that anxiety affects more and more people these days. I am creating this thread on the hope that some of you, anyone, struggling with GAD shares their story.
I am tired of feeling alone.
Thank you and have a nice day.