It seems it will never end

I am tired of being alone. Some days it feels like it will never end. I need a best friend. I need someone that would actually miss me if I died in my sleep. Now I think i would lay there a long time before anyone missed me. I have so much to offer someone ( emotionally) but I just can't seem to catch a break. I am 53, male Live in Oregon. Anyone would like to chat just text me 541-231-2297. I am so tired of this.

Jeff