az85029gal
Member
Hello to all, I first registered on the forum almost four years ago... but I was still in such denial then that I never even posted one hello message. I saved the site to my bookmarks and continued denying my lonely existence.
Four wasted years later and the only thing that has changed is that I have wised up to the reality of my life. And all though they are just typed words in a forum post what I am about to admit is monumental to me.
I have spent my life putting others before myself. I now realize that you teach others how to treat you. In putting them first always I taught them that they were important and I was not. Now the 54-year-old woman who stares back at me from the mirror shows the years of neglect as she is old before her time. I am afraid I waited too long to wise up, that my appearance will overshadow any valuable traits that I have such as loyalty and devotion and I will remain this achingly lonely for the remainder of my days.
There I said it or typed it but even if no one else reads this at least I have admitted it to myself. Now I have to figure out what if anything I can do about it.
If someone does read this and has any suggestions or anything I appreciate it.
Four wasted years later and the only thing that has changed is that I have wised up to the reality of my life. And all though they are just typed words in a forum post what I am about to admit is monumental to me.
I have spent my life putting others before myself. I now realize that you teach others how to treat you. In putting them first always I taught them that they were important and I was not. Now the 54-year-old woman who stares back at me from the mirror shows the years of neglect as she is old before her time. I am afraid I waited too long to wise up, that my appearance will overshadow any valuable traits that I have such as loyalty and devotion and I will remain this achingly lonely for the remainder of my days.
There I said it or typed it but even if no one else reads this at least I have admitted it to myself. Now I have to figure out what if anything I can do about it.
If someone does read this and has any suggestions or anything I appreciate it.