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My naive-ness is the reason why I run away from friendships.
Here is the reason why.
My story.
I can't even manage to hold a friendship.
Most of my friendships last 6 months. It's mostly hobbies and some common interest. Once I open my mouth, I feel like they know that I am a loner and very naive. So they assume that I have no friends even without fully knowing me. They can read me very well. I don't really agree with them. I just put their thoughts as an assumption and tell myself that they really don't know anything about my life. But deep down, their assumptions are true.
The only reason I THINK people think that I am a loner is because I have nothing to say. I am so naive, that my mind is still in the learning process. So my social skills is at the same level of a kindergarten child.
My question is how can I don't give people the idea that I am a loner and naive. How can I look more experienced? I am tried of people thinking this way about me. I am the one that unfriends the friends I had. Once I know that they assume that I am a loner. I want to run away from them and never meet them again. I find it very disrespectful from them seeing me as a loner. I want to be seen like a regular person like once of their long time best friends.
I feel like every person I meet, it will be the same cycle again. We will enjoy our first few months and I will end up running away from them because I feel like I am not part of the friendship. I shouldn't feel this way. I shouldn't have doubts. I should be happy. But I am not because I assume this way. I know my assumptions are right because it's all body language. Despite having terrible social skills, body language is the only thing I can read.
Here is the reason why.
My story.
I can't even manage to hold a friendship.
Most of my friendships last 6 months. It's mostly hobbies and some common interest. Once I open my mouth, I feel like they know that I am a loner and very naive. So they assume that I have no friends even without fully knowing me. They can read me very well. I don't really agree with them. I just put their thoughts as an assumption and tell myself that they really don't know anything about my life. But deep down, their assumptions are true.
The only reason I THINK people think that I am a loner is because I have nothing to say. I am so naive, that my mind is still in the learning process. So my social skills is at the same level of a kindergarten child.
My question is how can I don't give people the idea that I am a loner and naive. How can I look more experienced? I am tried of people thinking this way about me. I am the one that unfriends the friends I had. Once I know that they assume that I am a loner. I want to run away from them and never meet them again. I find it very disrespectful from them seeing me as a loner. I want to be seen like a regular person like once of their long time best friends.
I feel like every person I meet, it will be the same cycle again. We will enjoy our first few months and I will end up running away from them because I feel like I am not part of the friendship. I shouldn't feel this way. I shouldn't have doubts. I should be happy. But I am not because I assume this way. I know my assumptions are right because it's all body language. Despite having terrible social skills, body language is the only thing I can read.