mugiwara.no.jackie
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i am a 30 year old man who is broken and broke.. there are two people i consider friends whom i speak to once every couple years.. most of my family lives 2,000 miles away, and the rest even farther.. to put it simply, i have been mostly alone for the past few months..
out of loneliness, i decided to text my ex tonight.. like an essay long dramatic text about how miserable my life has been recently and how bad i am at my job.. of course i also mentioned how much i miss her and reminisced about our past..
first thing she replied was "so dramatic".. which i totally understand given the context of my message.. she then proceeded to console me, saying that she wanted me to be happy and asked about my current situation.. good sign right? NOPE.. she then told me how great her life is and that she's seeing someone..
this made me sick.. literally.. like my stomach felt like it was gonna implode and my heart was being pricked by a thousand needles.. i thought she was the one.. the thought of her being with someone else was my worst fear and it just came true.. my plan has always been to try and get her back once i am in a better state.. but now, i suddenly feel like i've lost my purpose..
now i am afraid that i will end up alone for the rest of my life.. it is hard for me to make friends, and even harder to keep them.. i have no luck with the opposite sex as i was never ever close to being decent looking..
has anyone here been in a similar situation?
out of loneliness, i decided to text my ex tonight.. like an essay long dramatic text about how miserable my life has been recently and how bad i am at my job.. of course i also mentioned how much i miss her and reminisced about our past..
first thing she replied was "so dramatic".. which i totally understand given the context of my message.. she then proceeded to console me, saying that she wanted me to be happy and asked about my current situation.. good sign right? NOPE.. she then told me how great her life is and that she's seeing someone..
this made me sick.. literally.. like my stomach felt like it was gonna implode and my heart was being pricked by a thousand needles.. i thought she was the one.. the thought of her being with someone else was my worst fear and it just came true.. my plan has always been to try and get her back once i am in a better state.. but now, i suddenly feel like i've lost my purpose..
now i am afraid that i will end up alone for the rest of my life.. it is hard for me to make friends, and even harder to keep them.. i have no luck with the opposite sex as i was never ever close to being decent looking..
has anyone here been in a similar situation?