sadlonelyguy
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I don't even know what I want out of posting this, apart from stating the fact that even as someone who was very outgoing, cheeky, big smile on his face, young (i am a 26 year old guy), vibrant and in the prime of his life, loneliness can really affect and get to anyone.
My friends and siblings are al married with their own families and I hardly ever see them. I say friends but since they have got married forget linking up, there is hardly ever a call or text even; not even a proper reply when I initiate, so I stepped back and none of them have stepped forward so all there is a deadly silence on the group chats, The chat that I ironically created, given the lonely loser I am.
As for family well again siblings are married, we all work during the week, and weekends well that’s their family time so to avoid being the third wheel, I try not to intrude, so the only time i ever really see my siblings is if here is an occasion or event of sorts and even then there is nothing deep, just your "hi" and "how ae you" kind of thing.
My parents, well what a tragedy that is, not divorced but not properly together, i call it "semi-estranged" if there is such a thing.
I get up and try to be positive and smile, hope that today would be better than yesterday. I go to work and do my job. My lunch hour is spent alone and when I can face it I aimlessly wonder the streets and when I can't face it I just skip my lunch altogether and carry on working unpaid.
It really hits home when ironically i get home, the empty silent house awaits. I dread it, sometime staying at work late just to avoid it, Again unpaid. Apart from the TV there is no company, As I sit eating my dinner alone at the dining table, I often wonder why I even needed to fork out on dining table just to sit alone at it.
I say the TV is my only company but the tragedy is that sometimes i even mute or switch it off just so i can hear some form of human life from my home in the form of my next-door neighbour’s noisy kids. It’s sad actually and most people would find it annoying but it is sometimes the only thing that brightens my day up a little; to hear some form of life from my home, however faint it is.
I am off this week but have no one to spend it with. I am in good physical health but as I write this I do wonder, that if anything happened to me tonight and I died, I wouldn't be discovered till next Wednesday at the earlier, when I do not turn up to work after my leave. And the people who find me, my employer, would have the replacement in my job within a month.
My friends and siblings are al married with their own families and I hardly ever see them. I say friends but since they have got married forget linking up, there is hardly ever a call or text even; not even a proper reply when I initiate, so I stepped back and none of them have stepped forward so all there is a deadly silence on the group chats, The chat that I ironically created, given the lonely loser I am.
As for family well again siblings are married, we all work during the week, and weekends well that’s their family time so to avoid being the third wheel, I try not to intrude, so the only time i ever really see my siblings is if here is an occasion or event of sorts and even then there is nothing deep, just your "hi" and "how ae you" kind of thing.
My parents, well what a tragedy that is, not divorced but not properly together, i call it "semi-estranged" if there is such a thing.
I get up and try to be positive and smile, hope that today would be better than yesterday. I go to work and do my job. My lunch hour is spent alone and when I can face it I aimlessly wonder the streets and when I can't face it I just skip my lunch altogether and carry on working unpaid.
It really hits home when ironically i get home, the empty silent house awaits. I dread it, sometime staying at work late just to avoid it, Again unpaid. Apart from the TV there is no company, As I sit eating my dinner alone at the dining table, I often wonder why I even needed to fork out on dining table just to sit alone at it.
I say the TV is my only company but the tragedy is that sometimes i even mute or switch it off just so i can hear some form of human life from my home in the form of my next-door neighbour’s noisy kids. It’s sad actually and most people would find it annoying but it is sometimes the only thing that brightens my day up a little; to hear some form of life from my home, however faint it is.
I am off this week but have no one to spend it with. I am in good physical health but as I write this I do wonder, that if anything happened to me tonight and I died, I wouldn't be discovered till next Wednesday at the earlier, when I do not turn up to work after my leave. And the people who find me, my employer, would have the replacement in my job within a month.