What I'm going to talk about is different from everything I've seen in this forum, so I hope it fits. It is also a delicate issue.
A few months ago I spoke here about a failed relationship I experienced in the past 3 years that left me sad and lonely. Fortunately I feel much better now, as I went to college and made new friends, along with investing more in the friendships I already had. Thank you for all your help!
As I said I don't feel sad anymore and I learned to accept myself better. From that and reflecting on who I am, a new issue has arrived. Looking back at the past, I don't remember feeling true sexually attraction to anyone. I did feel platonic and even romantic attraction, like with that girl I described, but when I go out I don't really wish to have sex with anyone in that club or bar. Another aspect is that I can't distinguish attractiveness between people, as I kind of see beauty in every girl. When my colleagues and friends talk which girls are the most attractive in the class or school, I can't and never could name someone. Perhaps the strongest evidence is that porn has always disgusted me and I never felt the urge to see it. I don't feel attracted to boys either so the obvious answer here is that I may be asexual. However, I also find strong evidence against because I did want to have sex with the girl I described, even though only in a few occasions, like certain parties.
Up to this point I've never been in a romantic relationship, serious or otherwise, neither did I had sex. I don't think I'm asexual but I do consider giving up permanently on those things, a goal I've been pursuing for quite sometime without success. I know one can't become asexual, because it's not really a choice, but I can go abstinent.
So what do you think? Is there any way I can find out if I'm asexual? If I'm not, what do you think about taking abstinence? If so, is there any way I can make a serious abstinence vote?
A few months ago I spoke here about a failed relationship I experienced in the past 3 years that left me sad and lonely. Fortunately I feel much better now, as I went to college and made new friends, along with investing more in the friendships I already had. Thank you for all your help!
As I said I don't feel sad anymore and I learned to accept myself better. From that and reflecting on who I am, a new issue has arrived. Looking back at the past, I don't remember feeling true sexually attraction to anyone. I did feel platonic and even romantic attraction, like with that girl I described, but when I go out I don't really wish to have sex with anyone in that club or bar. Another aspect is that I can't distinguish attractiveness between people, as I kind of see beauty in every girl. When my colleagues and friends talk which girls are the most attractive in the class or school, I can't and never could name someone. Perhaps the strongest evidence is that porn has always disgusted me and I never felt the urge to see it. I don't feel attracted to boys either so the obvious answer here is that I may be asexual. However, I also find strong evidence against because I did want to have sex with the girl I described, even though only in a few occasions, like certain parties.
Up to this point I've never been in a romantic relationship, serious or otherwise, neither did I had sex. I don't think I'm asexual but I do consider giving up permanently on those things, a goal I've been pursuing for quite sometime without success. I know one can't become asexual, because it's not really a choice, but I can go abstinent.
So what do you think? Is there any way I can find out if I'm asexual? If I'm not, what do you think about taking abstinence? If so, is there any way I can make a serious abstinence vote?