I have been living alone for over 5 years, and it has been impossible to build platonic relationships due to inexperience and shyness as well as the usual barriers that adults must climb over if they just want to share a coffee with someone.
I now feel so alone that I don't have any more hobbies or interests apart from fighting off loneliness and I don't know what I am supposed to want. Living alone is brutal, if affects my mood so badly, I can barely even work or operate which only leads to more loneliness.
If I ask people questions about themselves they get defensive, if I stay quiet they get frustrated, often people in clubs/groups also struggle with inexperience or their emotions. Sometimes I fail to hit the right notes. I've rarely met anyone who dares to open up, it's such a horrible place to be.
The last thing I want to do is go out and start talking to strangers again. I no longer have the nerve. I know it's all that's left. But the thought of going to any more groups or courses makes me physically hurt. I don't know what to do or where to go and dread every day, sometimes I'm in tears, where does a grown man go in this situation. I'm completely exhausted. Just someone give up the answers already.
I now feel so alone that I don't have any more hobbies or interests apart from fighting off loneliness and I don't know what I am supposed to want. Living alone is brutal, if affects my mood so badly, I can barely even work or operate which only leads to more loneliness.
If I ask people questions about themselves they get defensive, if I stay quiet they get frustrated, often people in clubs/groups also struggle with inexperience or their emotions. Sometimes I fail to hit the right notes. I've rarely met anyone who dares to open up, it's such a horrible place to be.
The last thing I want to do is go out and start talking to strangers again. I no longer have the nerve. I know it's all that's left. But the thought of going to any more groups or courses makes me physically hurt. I don't know what to do or where to go and dread every day, sometimes I'm in tears, where does a grown man go in this situation. I'm completely exhausted. Just someone give up the answers already.