So my name's TyTy, i joined a few months ago but didn't really browse around until now. Not really sure what the etiquette for introductions is, so I'm just gonna give you a run down of the recent events that have made me who I am today. I'm here because, well, I'm a lonely person. I'm 23, should be having the time of my life being in my prime, right? Well, not so much.
I always had a very small, tight knit group of friends. Over the years they dropped off, as is natural. But in the last two years, I went from 4 or 5 really close friends, to absolutely none. The catalyst was my boyfriend. Together for 6 very formative years, we were planning on getting engaged. Then out of the blue, as I was away in Baltimore visiting family for Thanksgiving, he sent me a text to tell me that it was over. And that was it. No closure. Well, that changed my life in ways that I never thought a single person could. Fell into a steep depression and drug addiction, isolated, and subsequently lost my closest childhood best friend. I had been on my way to success through school, earning academic excellence awards and a prestigious internship for a highly praised archaeological program...but I dropped it all.
And now, here I am. Almost 3 years later and I have no friends, a dead-end job, and no plans for my future. I'm in the process of pulling myself out of this hole. I've made plans to go back to therapy (I'd been in therapy for 15 years consistently due to childhood trauma and the developmental issues that come with all that), I'm looking for a nice 9-5 office job and taking online college courses. But the thing that troubles me most now is the lack of companionship. God how I want to connect with someone, even just having a best girlfriend to talk to and give mutual support. But I want that spark of falling in love again. I've stayed abstinent for 2 years, and ghosted all of the few men I've gone on dates with since. After being completely isolated for so long, I've forgotten how to interact with people. I don't know, I'm hoping this site can help me with all that. Even virtual interaction would be nice. I just don't want to feel alone anymore. All my motivation in life is driven by other people and my unique roll in society...I need to get that back if I'm going to keep moving forward. 'Cause all I've been doing is reliving the past, and I'm a different person now.
Anyways, sorry. That's a long, very personal introduction lol. I also like to write, and do portrait art. I love movies, especially psychological thrillers, and philosophical dramas. I have a 2 year old Great Dane/ Pitbull mix named Bruno, and he's my world! I grew up in Alaska, I am a professional soprano singer, a clinical hypochondriac, OH and I have a side ways uterus. So that's pretty cool. I'm a pretty analytical person, and spend most of my free time working through ideas, and studying various subjects. I'm nice I swear--I'm just shy!
Thanks for reading this far, if you did!
I always had a very small, tight knit group of friends. Over the years they dropped off, as is natural. But in the last two years, I went from 4 or 5 really close friends, to absolutely none. The catalyst was my boyfriend. Together for 6 very formative years, we were planning on getting engaged. Then out of the blue, as I was away in Baltimore visiting family for Thanksgiving, he sent me a text to tell me that it was over. And that was it. No closure. Well, that changed my life in ways that I never thought a single person could. Fell into a steep depression and drug addiction, isolated, and subsequently lost my closest childhood best friend. I had been on my way to success through school, earning academic excellence awards and a prestigious internship for a highly praised archaeological program...but I dropped it all.
And now, here I am. Almost 3 years later and I have no friends, a dead-end job, and no plans for my future. I'm in the process of pulling myself out of this hole. I've made plans to go back to therapy (I'd been in therapy for 15 years consistently due to childhood trauma and the developmental issues that come with all that), I'm looking for a nice 9-5 office job and taking online college courses. But the thing that troubles me most now is the lack of companionship. God how I want to connect with someone, even just having a best girlfriend to talk to and give mutual support. But I want that spark of falling in love again. I've stayed abstinent for 2 years, and ghosted all of the few men I've gone on dates with since. After being completely isolated for so long, I've forgotten how to interact with people. I don't know, I'm hoping this site can help me with all that. Even virtual interaction would be nice. I just don't want to feel alone anymore. All my motivation in life is driven by other people and my unique roll in society...I need to get that back if I'm going to keep moving forward. 'Cause all I've been doing is reliving the past, and I'm a different person now.
Anyways, sorry. That's a long, very personal introduction lol. I also like to write, and do portrait art. I love movies, especially psychological thrillers, and philosophical dramas. I have a 2 year old Great Dane/ Pitbull mix named Bruno, and he's my world! I grew up in Alaska, I am a professional soprano singer, a clinical hypochondriac, OH and I have a side ways uterus. So that's pretty cool. I'm a pretty analytical person, and spend most of my free time working through ideas, and studying various subjects. I'm nice I swear--I'm just shy!
Thanks for reading this far, if you did!