Tyger Heron
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I won't bore you with details. In my early 20's a tragic event occured in my life where I lost everything, job, friends.... lets just say barring family I lost everything. I ended up in a very dark place for many a year, of course there were times of hope in there but nothing ever came of it. There were times I would not be able to leave the house and when I did would cross the street to avoid passing strangers. It was a long dark time but is long since over, I met someone.
At the time we were amazing for each other, lifted each other, made each other feel alive again. I lived for her, lived for us, wanted to give her what she deserved which was far more than I had. So I worked on that, I was dedicated to that, the self improvement... I went from from a decade of unemployment to pulling in £2.5k a month and thats just the things you can measure, not the mental, emotional things. The situation was always complicated and difficult but we always tried, we needed a lot of pateince to get to the place we wanted to be and I think it is my lack of patience, my stressing, my mental health issues and my one track mind, that it was this or nothing is why it is now over.
I had all my eggs in one basket, I lived for us and not for me, I did things always with us in mind and not me. It has been almost 2 decades now since I have lived for me, wanted to better me, wanted me to be happy soley for me. How do I go about doing it. How do I push myself, better myself, do things for me that will make me happy.
At the time we were amazing for each other, lifted each other, made each other feel alive again. I lived for her, lived for us, wanted to give her what she deserved which was far more than I had. So I worked on that, I was dedicated to that, the self improvement... I went from from a decade of unemployment to pulling in £2.5k a month and thats just the things you can measure, not the mental, emotional things. The situation was always complicated and difficult but we always tried, we needed a lot of pateince to get to the place we wanted to be and I think it is my lack of patience, my stressing, my mental health issues and my one track mind, that it was this or nothing is why it is now over.
I had all my eggs in one basket, I lived for us and not for me, I did things always with us in mind and not me. It has been almost 2 decades now since I have lived for me, wanted to better me, wanted me to be happy soley for me. How do I go about doing it. How do I push myself, better myself, do things for me that will make me happy.