lovableplatypus
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I'm just alone all the time on my free time. I have a job and there i mostly feel alone, too. Even on the internet I find it hard to make connections.
I am past my mid 20's and I've always felt this way. I recently had my birthday and realized my life is not going anywhere. Sure I am lucky to have a somewhat decent job now. But it doesn't help me with my personal relationships, which seems to be the root of these issues (or more like me being the issue, but you know).
I mean, there are some things that are making my life ok. I have my own apartment (though I can barely afford it these days). I have a job (not a full time but I can manage). I can visit my parents anytime I want, we are in a good terms. I have one of my siblings that I see regularly who is very important to me.
But that's about it. I live alone. I have developed a bad addiction to alcohol for 2-3 years now. I've always been depressed and anxious ever since childhood.
I see job/apartment/family are the positive things in my life but they are not the force that keeps me going forever, you know? There is no me, there is nothign that I want from my life. I'm just alone all days. I have ideas and inspirations but when I have the time to make it happen I just do nothing instead.
My money issues are worrying me a bit too. I am in quite some debt and with this corona virus I don't get as much working hours as I should have/need to have. Of course I understand this situation, it is bad and there is not much I can do. How are the hundreds of thousands of people ALL going to get out of this financial trouble, me included?
I am past my mid 20's and I've always felt this way. I recently had my birthday and realized my life is not going anywhere. Sure I am lucky to have a somewhat decent job now. But it doesn't help me with my personal relationships, which seems to be the root of these issues (or more like me being the issue, but you know).
I mean, there are some things that are making my life ok. I have my own apartment (though I can barely afford it these days). I have a job (not a full time but I can manage). I can visit my parents anytime I want, we are in a good terms. I have one of my siblings that I see regularly who is very important to me.
But that's about it. I live alone. I have developed a bad addiction to alcohol for 2-3 years now. I've always been depressed and anxious ever since childhood.
I see job/apartment/family are the positive things in my life but they are not the force that keeps me going forever, you know? There is no me, there is nothign that I want from my life. I'm just alone all days. I have ideas and inspirations but when I have the time to make it happen I just do nothing instead.
My money issues are worrying me a bit too. I am in quite some debt and with this corona virus I don't get as much working hours as I should have/need to have. Of course I understand this situation, it is bad and there is not much I can do. How are the hundreds of thousands of people ALL going to get out of this financial trouble, me included?