Hello! I probably forgot that this forum existed.
It feels weird to read my last post which I wrote when I was 19. It is like as if nothing much has changed. Life still sucks. Now I am 23 years old. Lonely, anxious and probably depressed.
I only have 1 close friend in university who helps me a lot with my studies. She is the only person I text to regularly but we usually talk about random things like promotions, news, food pictures etc. We don't talk about personal issues. Nevertheless, I am truly grateful to have her as my friend since it would be difficult for me to survive university on my own.
As for my other friends, they are still attached and 1 of them is married. I have never dated anyone till now. Whenever we meet up, we will just update each other about school/work/boyfriends and that's pretty much it. Surface talk. I still look forward to going out with them. It means a lot to me. This is better than having 0 social life at all.
I still crave for a deeper connection with someone. I wish I had a friend to talk about stuff openly and spend time with. I feel so alone. I feel disappointed in myself when I kind of like someone (as a friend) and want to get to know him or her further but I just don't know how to do it. I really have to work on my social skills or this will keep dragging me down. If I don't do anything to try to improve myself, I can't expect things to change or improve.
Hopefully years from now I'll come back to this forum with a more positive story to share but for now loneliness is still a problem.
It feels weird to read my last post which I wrote when I was 19. It is like as if nothing much has changed. Life still sucks. Now I am 23 years old. Lonely, anxious and probably depressed.
I only have 1 close friend in university who helps me a lot with my studies. She is the only person I text to regularly but we usually talk about random things like promotions, news, food pictures etc. We don't talk about personal issues. Nevertheless, I am truly grateful to have her as my friend since it would be difficult for me to survive university on my own.
As for my other friends, they are still attached and 1 of them is married. I have never dated anyone till now. Whenever we meet up, we will just update each other about school/work/boyfriends and that's pretty much it. Surface talk. I still look forward to going out with them. It means a lot to me. This is better than having 0 social life at all.
I still crave for a deeper connection with someone. I wish I had a friend to talk about stuff openly and spend time with. I feel so alone. I feel disappointed in myself when I kind of like someone (as a friend) and want to get to know him or her further but I just don't know how to do it. I really have to work on my social skills or this will keep dragging me down. If I don't do anything to try to improve myself, I can't expect things to change or improve.
Hopefully years from now I'll come back to this forum with a more positive story to share but for now loneliness is still a problem.