worthless_loser
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I have anger issues.
I want to stop feeling this way but I don't know what the problem is.
I don't know if I'm a narcissist, have a victim complex, just an *******, or something else.
I went on Facebook today looking for a recipe my parents wanted my aunt to send them.
When looking for it, I saw many people I went to school with, and I started to get angry.
When I see those people, I get angry.
I don't even go to their profiles, I just glance at their pictures in the recommended friends box.
I just imagine screaming in their faces in front of everyone about how angry I am.
Then people start fighting me, but I imagine I have superpowers so I can fight them off.
I know this sounds really stupid, but that's the best way I can describe it.
I can't think of anything that was done to me to elicit so much anger.
I was bullied in school, but mostly verbally and practical jokes.
I think I'm bitter because they are more mature than me and I'm still childish.
They've changed since then and have more important things going on in their lives.
I haven't grown as a person at all since high school, maybe even before that.
I'm just mooching off my parents and trying to figure out how the basics of being an adult.
I still don't know how I'm going to make the world a better place, let alone be self-reliant.
Some of them have kids, partners, and careers by now.
I'm behind them, and I'll never catch up.
I think I'm angry at them because I expected things to go a certain way and they didn't.
I wanted people to initiate a conversation with me and help me with my problems.
I didn't want to ask them because they (teachers, and classmates) weren't the kind of people I thought I could talk about my problems with.
I also didn't really know how to ask for help, or what my problems were.
I now know that that is an unrealistic expectation and that's not how the real world works.
I have to talk to people if I want them to talk to me.
When I get really angry, I start whisper-yelling to myself, imagining what I'd say to the person I'm angry at.
And sometimes, I want to hit or break something when I get angry at a person, or if I hurt myself (like bumping my head under a doorway or something).
I use to meditate, and the desire to break things wasn't as strong, but I stopped a while ago.
I don't really know why.
I think I put everything in here.
I'd like some positive feedback, please.
If you have any advice or empathy, I'd appreciate it.
Sorry for such a long post.
I want to stop feeling this way but I don't know what the problem is.
I don't know if I'm a narcissist, have a victim complex, just an *******, or something else.
I went on Facebook today looking for a recipe my parents wanted my aunt to send them.
When looking for it, I saw many people I went to school with, and I started to get angry.
When I see those people, I get angry.
I don't even go to their profiles, I just glance at their pictures in the recommended friends box.
I just imagine screaming in their faces in front of everyone about how angry I am.
Then people start fighting me, but I imagine I have superpowers so I can fight them off.
I know this sounds really stupid, but that's the best way I can describe it.
I can't think of anything that was done to me to elicit so much anger.
I was bullied in school, but mostly verbally and practical jokes.
I think I'm bitter because they are more mature than me and I'm still childish.
They've changed since then and have more important things going on in their lives.
I haven't grown as a person at all since high school, maybe even before that.
I'm just mooching off my parents and trying to figure out how the basics of being an adult.
I still don't know how I'm going to make the world a better place, let alone be self-reliant.
Some of them have kids, partners, and careers by now.
I'm behind them, and I'll never catch up.
I think I'm angry at them because I expected things to go a certain way and they didn't.
I wanted people to initiate a conversation with me and help me with my problems.
I didn't want to ask them because they (teachers, and classmates) weren't the kind of people I thought I could talk about my problems with.
I also didn't really know how to ask for help, or what my problems were.
I now know that that is an unrealistic expectation and that's not how the real world works.
I have to talk to people if I want them to talk to me.
When I get really angry, I start whisper-yelling to myself, imagining what I'd say to the person I'm angry at.
And sometimes, I want to hit or break something when I get angry at a person, or if I hurt myself (like bumping my head under a doorway or something).
I use to meditate, and the desire to break things wasn't as strong, but I stopped a while ago.
I don't really know why.
I think I put everything in here.
I'd like some positive feedback, please.
If you have any advice or empathy, I'd appreciate it.
Sorry for such a long post.