M_also_lonely
Well-known member
So there is a friend I chat with the time. Since 4-5 years.
We always had long conversations. About deep and 'boring' subjects, off-course with our limited knowledge and understanding.
He has helped me a lot, I have helped him a bit. He was like my elder brother.
He would criticize me very frequently, but only with a goal of mutual learning. We have spent 100s of hours debating on various things.
But suddenly, everything changed:
I was upset by the news of a violent mob lynching of 2 sages in my country.
There are multiple reasons for me to be upset.
I told him about that, and he suddenly went hostile. Accused me of being a hyper nationalist, accused me of saying things I never said, and kept using the word 'bullshit' in every sentence.
I kept asking proof of his accusations, while I later realized that only he was going on on a keyboard rampage without even reading my responses.
I didn't see that coming. This was a shock to me because I never thought that he was not a person who would do that. He used to be a good listener, a calm, and intelligent person.
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Next day, he sends me messages like nothing happened.
Sends me informative videos and asks for my opinion on that.
Unable to decide, I don't respond.
He chases me to steam, asking me if I want to play a game or not. And "are we not talking or something?"
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I can't feel normal like before. This thing will always bother me.
Things can't be taken back to normal, like nothing ever happened.
Even if we "talked about it".
I am not sure how to deal with it.
We always had long conversations. About deep and 'boring' subjects, off-course with our limited knowledge and understanding.
He has helped me a lot, I have helped him a bit. He was like my elder brother.
He would criticize me very frequently, but only with a goal of mutual learning. We have spent 100s of hours debating on various things.
But suddenly, everything changed:
I was upset by the news of a violent mob lynching of 2 sages in my country.
There are multiple reasons for me to be upset.
I told him about that, and he suddenly went hostile. Accused me of being a hyper nationalist, accused me of saying things I never said, and kept using the word 'bullshit' in every sentence.
I kept asking proof of his accusations, while I later realized that only he was going on on a keyboard rampage without even reading my responses.
I didn't see that coming. This was a shock to me because I never thought that he was not a person who would do that. He used to be a good listener, a calm, and intelligent person.
_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Next day, he sends me messages like nothing happened.
Sends me informative videos and asks for my opinion on that.
Unable to decide, I don't respond.
He chases me to steam, asking me if I want to play a game or not. And "are we not talking or something?"
_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
I can't feel normal like before. This thing will always bother me.
Things can't be taken back to normal, like nothing ever happened.
Even if we "talked about it".
I am not sure how to deal with it.