solonely20
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Just like when I first used my left hand after using my right to masturbate for years I quickly changed hands due to the feeling of unfamiliarity and frankly it was uncomfortable. This is how I think I'll feel if I get got close to a girl since I never have or close to friends as it's been since high school 10+ years that I had any friends. Loneliness can kill you mentally and tell you, "this is not for you" and, "stick to what you know".
I've thought for a while that after being lonely so long and becoming familiar with it, I'm incapable of changing. It's like a demon inside tells me, if you become more outgoing though it's against my nature, I'll make a fool out of myself or people will laugh at me as people usually do.
It's shocking the things loneliness can do to a person and how others can sense it and then indirectly laugh at you for it due to your awkwardness.
I've thought for a while that after being lonely so long and becoming familiar with it, I'm incapable of changing. It's like a demon inside tells me, if you become more outgoing though it's against my nature, I'll make a fool out of myself or people will laugh at me as people usually do.
It's shocking the things loneliness can do to a person and how others can sense it and then indirectly laugh at you for it due to your awkwardness.