Hi. Lovehurtme, there is still happiness out there. First girl, love yourself. They always say, if you don't respect and love yourself, no one would. Secondly, you say you are fat? No girl, I don't believe so, you just lack some exercise. Besides, look, you said you join the army and yeah, I don't see any fat people in the army so yeah you are not fat. Next ugly, No woman on this earth is ugly. What actually differentiates you from those mega stars is just a tat bit of make up, a nice hair style and some nice looking clothes. Regarding your hair, treasure it, there are some people like me (23 years and losing much hair) that would give up everything for a full head of hair and that, people have different type of hairs, that is what makes them unique. Do away with the wig, maybe you can try experimenting different ways to wear your real hair(long hair, short blob, wavy curls, e.t.c). Then girl, one thing, screw the past. So what about our past? We can only look back and reflect upon it, and learn from our mistakes. What matters most importantly, is now, cause you are living it and the future. So look ahead my girl, for happiness can really be found if you allow it to enter your heart. =)