My Life Story

Just feel that it has really turned around, and thought i would share...
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Lets start this story when i was in 1st grade.
okay,
so
I was the most popular kid in the school,
and also the kindest kid around.
had to befriend anyone and everyone
was just who i was.
one day i befriended the wrong kid though.
it wasnt that he changed me
it was that he changed those around me.
he didnt like my charm
he didnt like who i was
so he broke me
by turning every single one of my hundreds of friends against me...
the pain of losing that many close friends at a single time
is far worse than that of losing someone you thought you loved.
100 stabs in the back
not fun.

3rd grade,
i decided to try to help out a kid
exactly like the one that ruined me
i was still me
i could not let someone that lonely go without a friend.
he turned out just the opposite
and became my best friend.

5th grade
i moved to a rival town.
unfortunately nobody saw me as who i was
only where i was from
and nobody would befriend me.
i got beat up daily.

6th grade,
met a few people to be friends with
didnt last though

8th grade,
those i thought were my friends in my new town
stabbed me in the back
and i was back to being beat up every day.
only thing that kept me going was a girl i thought i liked.

10th grade,
wrote the girl i thought i liked a love poem in french,
the language of love,
she laughed it off in my face
ripped it up
and walked away.
while i was down
i stopped writing all together for an entire year.
while i was moping around
i went to visit my cousin
who pulled a knife on me
and almost stabbed me in the stomach.
i kicked his ass...

11th grade,
was diagnosed with depression
got my first girlfriend
she never wanted to do anything
only gave me one kiss over the month we were together
and ended up cheating on me
sleeping with some random kid she met on a cruise...


now for the part that turns all the negatives around...

while i was down
i was on facebook
using an app called Are You Interested?
which is pretty much a dating app
thats where i met my current girlfriend.
we talk every night
we never really fight
we love each other so much
and tomorrow
i am driving down to visit her.
we have been dating for almost 3 weeks now,
and already it feels like she is The One.
we have planned for the future
everything is looking up.
she acknowledges my want to become a writer
seeing as she too wants to be a writer
and so we both help each other with our writing and such.
i help her any time she feels down
she helps me any time im down.
it feels like what you would see in a chick flick.

This is a really positive outlook Ty for sharing, and I hope your trip goes well.

thats me for you
mr brightside
i keep my head up through any situation...
well after any situation and before... during the situation itself i kinda flip out...
but even angels need to release steam when they are betrayed.

wow! I envy you. I'm yet to know what that feels like (i've never had a girlfriend) but I've also had an easier time growing up than you. So you really deserve it. Still, other peoples success stories make me feel more hopeless surely it should have the opposite effect.

Btw would you recommend I use that app? I feel as though my friends would rip on me if they saw that I was using it and I can imagine the pain of disappointment if I didn't get anywhere with it. But maybe it's a risk worth taking....

yeah, friends can be a pain in the ass.
just ignore them
they dont understand much when we are in the need of happiness.
do what you feel you have to.
everything will work out in the end.

People can be mean and cruel. I'm sorry that you got beat up. No one deserves that. And it certainly doesnt sound like you deserved it.

Depression can be a hard disease to live with. You have to be mindful of your daily routine and thoughts to effectively fight against it.

CONGRATS with the gf!! I'm glad you are happy. However, dont write your entire happiness into one being. You might be dissapointed if you do so.