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kcris
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Hi everyone,
I'm not much of a computer user, and this is the first time I've ever posted on a site, but here goes. I'm 21 and female--I came across this site by accident, but I started clicking on people's threads and was really moved, not just by the initial posts, but by the responses. They all feel so genuine, which is something I don't think I experience very often.
I've struggled for several years with the question of whether I am lonely or not. To be sure, I feel lonely often enough, but then I think of the people I know, who I think do care about me to a certain degree, and how I should be grateful I have them, and then I feel guilty for not being grateful for whatever crumbs of recognition they send my way (I don't feel comfortable calling up any of these people close to midnight on a Friday night to ask them to hang out with me, just to be with me, or even just to talk to me for a few minutes, to hear a human voice). Then I think I wouldn't be so lonely if I just made an effort to "get out there and meet people." That's what everyone says. The only thing is, I have done that before, and either it's been a train wreck or it just didn't last beyond a few weeks of casual acquaintance. How do you go from idle banter to friendship? I've never been able to figure it out.
Anyway, I just wanted to put this out there. Blessed night to all.
I'm not much of a computer user, and this is the first time I've ever posted on a site, but here goes. I'm 21 and female--I came across this site by accident, but I started clicking on people's threads and was really moved, not just by the initial posts, but by the responses. They all feel so genuine, which is something I don't think I experience very often.
I've struggled for several years with the question of whether I am lonely or not. To be sure, I feel lonely often enough, but then I think of the people I know, who I think do care about me to a certain degree, and how I should be grateful I have them, and then I feel guilty for not being grateful for whatever crumbs of recognition they send my way (I don't feel comfortable calling up any of these people close to midnight on a Friday night to ask them to hang out with me, just to be with me, or even just to talk to me for a few minutes, to hear a human voice). Then I think I wouldn't be so lonely if I just made an effort to "get out there and meet people." That's what everyone says. The only thing is, I have done that before, and either it's been a train wreck or it just didn't last beyond a few weeks of casual acquaintance. How do you go from idle banter to friendship? I've never been able to figure it out.
Anyway, I just wanted to put this out there. Blessed night to all.