Haven
Well-known member
I remember being in high school this girl wanted to talk to me and I rejected her out of fear of her rejecting me it happened more then once I've been rejected so many times in my life to point were I fear rejection Ive been rejected by guys girls adults children my father my older brother a person I once called my best friend I don't hate my self I pity myself for being this awkward a lot of the time Ive rejected for not following the norms of my specific society I find so strange that I get rejected so often I'm Heterosexual 20 years old male 5'8 165 lbs I'm not derformed or hideous my clothing is average but my tastes morals are different from my communities norm I have a love for all genre of music hip hop rock metal jazz blues classic ect. where I'm from everyone acts the same being different causes you to become alienated honestly I don't hate myself I pity myself for become so scared of others that I were a social mask never revealing my true opinions and tastes feelings but today I even notice my avatar is and all have been masks funny right it makes me think maybe I'm hiding on the forum also which really is sad it will take some time to find an new avatar that fits my tastes I know every body fears rejection but my fear is a social phobia its crippling my life because of it I barely go outside I cant talk to strangers I have no friends/girl friend no job and I dont go to school I want all those things I feel like im fading away and I don't exist anymore I need some advice anything helpful will do