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Broken
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Hello, everyone. I think I'm starting to loose my mind. Me and my girl broke up after living together for 5 years. She found a new guy soon after, but all I do is thinking about her. 4 months have passed now, and she's the first thing on my mind when I wake up and when I go to bed. I dream about her in my sleep a lot lately. A few times I've almost broken down at work and I feel constantly lonely and depressed, and I have a lot of suicidal thoughts. I know I should probably see a shrink, but I can't afford one since I tend to drink away my money instead at this point and I just have a huge anxiety when thinking of seeing one. It feels as if I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown or something. I can't enjoy my life, and I haven't felt so lonely my entire life. I'm 27 years old, and I cry so much over my lost love. I have a good job, a nice apartement, family and friends, and still I'm so amazingly unhappy. I just don't know what to do, because I can't take this much longer.