MooDy
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Hi everyone...
As you can see I'm a new member in this interesting forum. It got my attention that there is actually people like me, lonely, confused, looking for solutions, and maybe tired of their lifestyle.
About me:
I’m 19 years old studying in Daytona Beach, Fl. I love reading so much that I think it's the only time I fined happiness.
To be honest I don't know what I want. Sometimes, I feel I can be someone, someone that change the world, make everyone life better, and give so much love to every one. However, this feeling disappear so soon that I feel lonely. At times, after I stop in front of my lonely house, shutdown the engine of the car and set meaningless, thoughtless, and tired. I don’t want to move an inch or think for minutes.
To be, or not to be: that is the question???
I have so much love to give only people near me can notice. The question is: is there anyone deserving that? Is there any human being can keep this love? Sometimes, I fell pain in the chest for no reason. Pain in my heart, like there is a hole, no one can heal it. Why??? That is my question. In fact I’m MOODY. I stooped two times from writing these words without a reason. Can I be someone?
There are times when I want to crash an airplane in the middle of nowhere without reason, or jumping of Evel Tower without a parachute. I’m not a suicidal, but doing something dangers is what I seek.
Can anyone understand my feelings?
This is my question to you guys ....
As you can see I'm a new member in this interesting forum. It got my attention that there is actually people like me, lonely, confused, looking for solutions, and maybe tired of their lifestyle.
About me:
I’m 19 years old studying in Daytona Beach, Fl. I love reading so much that I think it's the only time I fined happiness.
To be honest I don't know what I want. Sometimes, I feel I can be someone, someone that change the world, make everyone life better, and give so much love to every one. However, this feeling disappear so soon that I feel lonely. At times, after I stop in front of my lonely house, shutdown the engine of the car and set meaningless, thoughtless, and tired. I don’t want to move an inch or think for minutes.
To be, or not to be: that is the question???
I have so much love to give only people near me can notice. The question is: is there anyone deserving that? Is there any human being can keep this love? Sometimes, I fell pain in the chest for no reason. Pain in my heart, like there is a hole, no one can heal it. Why??? That is my question. In fact I’m MOODY. I stooped two times from writing these words without a reason. Can I be someone?
There are times when I want to crash an airplane in the middle of nowhere without reason, or jumping of Evel Tower without a parachute. I’m not a suicidal, but doing something dangers is what I seek.
Can anyone understand my feelings?
This is my question to you guys ....