hermes
Member
The older I get the more disturbed I feel.
I have never gone out socially at all in any way. No pubs, bars, work parties, mates and dread family get togethers. I find get togethers of any kind very depressing indeed almost to the point of making me ill.
Now I'm fifty and married with two kids. I find it hard to leave the house because I feel unsafe, feel threatened and panic. I only feel safe in my own house.
I have been a keen angler all my life but again for a long time now I just can't go. I want to and get all my gear ready, food etc the night before but chances are I can't face walking out the door. If I do get out then the chances of me staying out for more than an hour is zero, I always feel as if I need to get back home to safety.
For the last twenty years I have become depressed and feel very lonely. I have always thought I was a bit of a nutter and now I reckon thats true. Always felt very alone in crowds and the feelign that I never fit in anywhere I go. Thats why I never go to work do's as I feel unwanted.
It's a sad old life when you feel alone isn't it. No one to chat to or share your deepest darkest thoughts.
Although I'm married with kids I still feel alone.
I need some spirituality in my life, not necessarily a religion.
Quite nice to find a forum where you can chat..
Does anyone else know what I mean when I say that I feel unsafe outside and need to get back home?
I have never gone out socially at all in any way. No pubs, bars, work parties, mates and dread family get togethers. I find get togethers of any kind very depressing indeed almost to the point of making me ill.
Now I'm fifty and married with two kids. I find it hard to leave the house because I feel unsafe, feel threatened and panic. I only feel safe in my own house.
I have been a keen angler all my life but again for a long time now I just can't go. I want to and get all my gear ready, food etc the night before but chances are I can't face walking out the door. If I do get out then the chances of me staying out for more than an hour is zero, I always feel as if I need to get back home to safety.
For the last twenty years I have become depressed and feel very lonely. I have always thought I was a bit of a nutter and now I reckon thats true. Always felt very alone in crowds and the feelign that I never fit in anywhere I go. Thats why I never go to work do's as I feel unwanted.
It's a sad old life when you feel alone isn't it. No one to chat to or share your deepest darkest thoughts.
Although I'm married with kids I still feel alone.
I need some spirituality in my life, not necessarily a religion.
Quite nice to find a forum where you can chat..
Does anyone else know what I mean when I say that I feel unsafe outside and need to get back home?