Moody Blues
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Hello everyone. This is my first thread, so please bear with me. I apologize if I sound like I'm whining or ranting in advance.
Here's the deal. To be blunt... I've fallen for a girl who has a boyfriend, and I can't get her out of my mind.
We met in school two years ago and quickly became good friends (still not sure how that happened ). We were both single at the time. I didn't have any feelings for her initially, as I was just looking to be her friend, but as our friendship grew, I came to realize how beautiful she was, both inside and out. She was a ray of sunshine in my dim-lighted, lonely life, and I was always looking forward to going to school just to see her.
So eventually, as time progressed, I had finally decided to step up my game and ask her out. (This was a really big deal for me as this would've been the first girl I had asked out.) But then, she started skipping class. I figured (like an idiot) that if I didn't have the chance to ask her out during the remaining of the semester, I'd always have the next one. But as luck would have it, as soon as the next semester rolled around she got a boyfriend. I felt cheated, to say the least. The one time that things seemed to be going my way for once had been completely ruined.
They've been together for 9 months now, and she seems very happy with him. All the while I've been kicking my own ass for not being able to tell her how I felt about her. I'm pretty sure this is my own fault here and I did this to myself.
We're both still very good friends and we talk each time we see each other at school. It's just, whenever someone brings up her and her boyfriend, I can't help but feel down about it. This whole thing's been bugging me so much that I can't concentrate on anything anymore. I can't put 100% effort into anything anymore, even with things I usually enjoy. And with school just starting again, classes have been more difficult than they should be, although I still manage to keep up my grades.
Sure, I know I'm just hung up on the only girl that's really ever given me attention, and that I can "find someone else" and all of that, but as a 20 year old, introverted, shy, quiet guy that doesn't seem to attract girls, that's easier said than done (as much as I hate to admit). I've never felt this way about a girl before.
I don't want to do anything stupid that might kill our friendship, and I understand that she has a boyfriend and am willing to follow the "man code" of not stealing another guy's chick. As much as I would like to be her boyfriend and want to tell her how I feel, if we were only meant to be friends, then so be it. I'll continue to stay quiet and enjoy her friendship as I've always had.
I just want to be able to get over this heartache that's been bringing me down for all this time and put it behind me and move on. Who knows? Maybe I might get that second chance...
Nah, I don't have that kind of luck. That stuff only happens in the movies anyway
Well, that's my story. Sorry about the long post. Thank you to those who took the time to read the entire thing.
Here's the deal. To be blunt... I've fallen for a girl who has a boyfriend, and I can't get her out of my mind.
We met in school two years ago and quickly became good friends (still not sure how that happened ). We were both single at the time. I didn't have any feelings for her initially, as I was just looking to be her friend, but as our friendship grew, I came to realize how beautiful she was, both inside and out. She was a ray of sunshine in my dim-lighted, lonely life, and I was always looking forward to going to school just to see her.
So eventually, as time progressed, I had finally decided to step up my game and ask her out. (This was a really big deal for me as this would've been the first girl I had asked out.) But then, she started skipping class. I figured (like an idiot) that if I didn't have the chance to ask her out during the remaining of the semester, I'd always have the next one. But as luck would have it, as soon as the next semester rolled around she got a boyfriend. I felt cheated, to say the least. The one time that things seemed to be going my way for once had been completely ruined.
They've been together for 9 months now, and she seems very happy with him. All the while I've been kicking my own ass for not being able to tell her how I felt about her. I'm pretty sure this is my own fault here and I did this to myself.
We're both still very good friends and we talk each time we see each other at school. It's just, whenever someone brings up her and her boyfriend, I can't help but feel down about it. This whole thing's been bugging me so much that I can't concentrate on anything anymore. I can't put 100% effort into anything anymore, even with things I usually enjoy. And with school just starting again, classes have been more difficult than they should be, although I still manage to keep up my grades.
Sure, I know I'm just hung up on the only girl that's really ever given me attention, and that I can "find someone else" and all of that, but as a 20 year old, introverted, shy, quiet guy that doesn't seem to attract girls, that's easier said than done (as much as I hate to admit). I've never felt this way about a girl before.
I don't want to do anything stupid that might kill our friendship, and I understand that she has a boyfriend and am willing to follow the "man code" of not stealing another guy's chick. As much as I would like to be her boyfriend and want to tell her how I feel, if we were only meant to be friends, then so be it. I'll continue to stay quiet and enjoy her friendship as I've always had.
I just want to be able to get over this heartache that's been bringing me down for all this time and put it behind me and move on. Who knows? Maybe I might get that second chance...
Nah, I don't have that kind of luck. That stuff only happens in the movies anyway
Well, that's my story. Sorry about the long post. Thank you to those who took the time to read the entire thing.