Snickers
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I hardly have friends. Even if I do, they are not remotely close to me and also, they are all busy with their lives, working full-time and studying to even bother about me. What's more they have other friends to tend to, and why would they pick me?
Anyways, I've ended high school on a bad note and couldn't even enter into a local school,and during my time there, I got abused by teachers and classmates alike, sneering at me even though they are no better.
Not surprisingly ..I went into depression for a year plus before meeting an online friend who introduced me a job. I worked there for a year, getting yelled at for my incompetency and finally left that job and went looking for another similar office setting but did really badly and was asked to leave before my probation is up.
After that I venture into retail and was also asked to leave until I found a course that I wanted online but was expensive and couldn't afford at that point of time. I called up my mum and aunt during late at night to ask for help. They both rejected and say to go earn it myself and promptly hang up my phone.
Well, I was left hanging and finally decided to go look for part-time retail work. I did found one and find that it wasn't earning enough so I decided to look for another one.
It was hell holding on to those jobs and earning pittance while getting scolded publicly for being incompetent before I finally quit after 5 mths of each and decided to ask my dad to pay the rest.
Finally the fees is being paid fully and now im graduating soon from the course and going to enter into another course soon (promised to be sponsored fully by my dad) and now im still working part-time at retail and still being so incompetent (talking is not my greatest asset and ironically all the jobs I held are customer service jobs)
No wonder i'm so bloody depressed and think life sucks and what's more my course has no value and it's just a stepping stone to a local diploma or otherwise.
What the hell, why does life sucks so much and I do not have any friends to share with or consult me or hold my hands and say 'here's the right path' and my dad keeps stressing me out by saying I could potentially take over paying the house bills.
I feel like **** really and ready to throw everything out and say 'heck it...i'm going to the nuthouse and stare at the walls till the day I pass out'
And yes, I suck terribly at making friends. I can't seem to connect to people anymore.
Anyways, I've ended high school on a bad note and couldn't even enter into a local school,and during my time there, I got abused by teachers and classmates alike, sneering at me even though they are no better.
Not surprisingly ..I went into depression for a year plus before meeting an online friend who introduced me a job. I worked there for a year, getting yelled at for my incompetency and finally left that job and went looking for another similar office setting but did really badly and was asked to leave before my probation is up.
After that I venture into retail and was also asked to leave until I found a course that I wanted online but was expensive and couldn't afford at that point of time. I called up my mum and aunt during late at night to ask for help. They both rejected and say to go earn it myself and promptly hang up my phone.
Well, I was left hanging and finally decided to go look for part-time retail work. I did found one and find that it wasn't earning enough so I decided to look for another one.
It was hell holding on to those jobs and earning pittance while getting scolded publicly for being incompetent before I finally quit after 5 mths of each and decided to ask my dad to pay the rest.
Finally the fees is being paid fully and now im graduating soon from the course and going to enter into another course soon (promised to be sponsored fully by my dad) and now im still working part-time at retail and still being so incompetent (talking is not my greatest asset and ironically all the jobs I held are customer service jobs)
No wonder i'm so bloody depressed and think life sucks and what's more my course has no value and it's just a stepping stone to a local diploma or otherwise.
What the hell, why does life sucks so much and I do not have any friends to share with or consult me or hold my hands and say 'here's the right path' and my dad keeps stressing me out by saying I could potentially take over paying the house bills.
I feel like **** really and ready to throw everything out and say 'heck it...i'm going to the nuthouse and stare at the walls till the day I pass out'
And yes, I suck terribly at making friends. I can't seem to connect to people anymore.