Hi Nena,I'm new here to,I voted in your poll and I do hope you will give it a chance here,maybe it will help a bit in time.
I know it can be hard to talk about personal issues when you where taught to keep things inside.It was very much like that in my family,where they believe things like depression and anxiety disorders do not exist or are merely a sign of weakness.
Don't let them make you in there image,don't let them take all from you,there are other people in the world,maybe there rare,hard to find but there is such thing as compassion and moments its not only okay to talk about your problems but imporant and good for the heart and soul.
Maybe try to start small,if you don't want to start by posting something here prehaps you could get yourself a notebook and write some things out,just let it out onto paper,don't censor yourself.Tell yourself you can always keep it private(everyone after all deserves a place to express themselves in private if they wish)if you like but give yourself some room to vent.I hope some of this helps a little,take care Nena