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timdjohn
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Well I have posted a few posts here, but had not introduced myself as of yet.
I am a 41-year-old guy living in the Seattle area of Washington State.
I am currently not employed, as I have applied for disability to this pain called Depression and basic misery.
I have been basically depressed all my life and have become so down that I now rarely leave the house. I get most things I need via postal. My only social setting is this bloody laptop, which is my only friend in the world.
I am now in constant misery, and fear the night, as that is when the grip of sadness is so overwhelming that I usually tearing up by midnight.
I no longer hope for relief, I gave up all hope so long ago that it is futile to believe in this myth of happiness.
I am not suicidal nor do I think I unfortunately ever will be. It is just not my nature. If I believed in a god (which I do not) I would say he put me here to suffer as if I were a martyr.
I think I shall give it a rest at the moment, and continue more warped ranting of my selfish misery at another time.
I am a 41-year-old guy living in the Seattle area of Washington State.
I am currently not employed, as I have applied for disability to this pain called Depression and basic misery.
I have been basically depressed all my life and have become so down that I now rarely leave the house. I get most things I need via postal. My only social setting is this bloody laptop, which is my only friend in the world.
I am now in constant misery, and fear the night, as that is when the grip of sadness is so overwhelming that I usually tearing up by midnight.
I no longer hope for relief, I gave up all hope so long ago that it is futile to believe in this myth of happiness.
I am not suicidal nor do I think I unfortunately ever will be. It is just not my nature. If I believed in a god (which I do not) I would say he put me here to suffer as if I were a martyr.
I think I shall give it a rest at the moment, and continue more warped ranting of my selfish misery at another time.