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don't know why i'm posting here again, but anyway. i am in contact with only a handful of people, most of my old friends i let go. i'm thinking of cutting my communication to almost zero, thats sounds insane for a lonely person, but i'll explain why. i dont like being in touch that much right now since there has been little going on in my life.. i dont want to appear less of a person. i go by the logic of if i don't make myself available, i cant get hurt. sorry this is probably making no sense. i want to move away to uni or something and make things happen, then try the friendship thing again. another thing that makes me feel awful is when i certain person takes forever or doesnt reply to my texts, basically all over the place. i just feel right now i need to become more of a man, i should be so successful right now but i wont go into all the tribulations.