UntrinqueParatus83
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Hi guys. So I’ve had a life that has taught me the value of myself. To believe in me even when no one else does. In October of 1999 I lost my family, all of them I was 16 years old and they all died in a Car Crash. I didn’t know how to cope, I was big and strong and angry and eventually it broke me. I ended up spending almost 20 years detained because I just couldn’t cope in those first few years. The system doesn’t believe in people, it thinks once broken likely to always be. Never the less exactly a year ago today I won my freedom in front of a court of law. Since then I was homeless initially, had zero support and I was lucky enough to find my feet a little. Now with this happening around the world I’ve found myself in a 3 bedroom house with 6 people and it is harder then it has ever been. I’m desperately trying to escape to solitude. I’m thinking I’ll soon be heading to the middle of nowhere till my end days , I can hunt and fish so I got a head start. The lonely feel I have isn’t that i am alone or have been alone for over two decades it’s a need to be alone I can’t shake. I don’t know anything about life except internal struggle and survival. Is that wrong to feel that way? Live or die I got to go, if i can’t build shelter and survive I will in all likelihood die but I die free and sane. All this in my head just driving me round the bend