Hey all, new here. Hope yall are doing well. Anyway, Ive been experiencing loneliness for a while now. Like most functional depressed people, I have a job and hide it well at work, I function well for the most part. Ive been divorced for 6 years, just turned 54 and for the most part Ive been fine with being alone. Im an artist or I should say, I call myself one since most of my free time is spent painting and drawing. Lately, the loneliness has been hard. Not sure why, but sometimes Im hit with intense feelings of sadness and suicidal thoughts. I dont beleive i will hurt myself and it passess quickly. Im not really interested in relationships. Not sure why. I like women, always have and have gotten along well with them. I had a good marriage, but it ended and I never really was able to recover from divorce. Im still friends with my ex, we have two grown kids who are doing well despite the divorce and my ex seems to be happy and has moved on which makes me happy for her. I dont know why Im saying all this, but I guess Im just feeling lonely and sending these words out into the world sort of makes one feel a little alive.