Jesse
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I'm down. I have a very good job for not having a college degree, but it's just not enough for me to be able to live on my own- at least not with my car payment. I work 3rd shift and normally have to sleep during the day, usually most of the day because it can take me hours to fall asleep. I can't quit my job because I have to pay rent to stay at my aunt and uncles. I can't go to school because of my job. I can't find a different job because any other job around here would be significantly less money.
Sometimes I feel like I should be proud of myself just because I'm able to hold down a job. I've been diagnosed with PTSD, Bipolar, social phobia, severe anxiety and depression. It's really tough most of the time to go to work. To go to school....I just don't think I can handle it. I've actually tried before and I just couldn't do it.
So I'm stuck. Now it's not so bad at my aunt and uncle's but the thing is they're getting old and not in good health and I'm worried about where I'll go when they're gone. I can't stay with them forever. These days it's also pretty difficult to find a Girlfriend if you live at home.
It's just the feeling of being trapped. Nearly half of what I make goes to paying for my car and car insurance.
My dad's girlfriend just lost her job and they live together. They don't know how they're going to make it and that's pressing down on me. I'm thinking of trying to get a second job to help them out.
I dunno, this stuff isn't all that bad compared to some people's problems. I'm just depressed and lonely.
Sometimes I feel like I should be proud of myself just because I'm able to hold down a job. I've been diagnosed with PTSD, Bipolar, social phobia, severe anxiety and depression. It's really tough most of the time to go to work. To go to school....I just don't think I can handle it. I've actually tried before and I just couldn't do it.
So I'm stuck. Now it's not so bad at my aunt and uncle's but the thing is they're getting old and not in good health and I'm worried about where I'll go when they're gone. I can't stay with them forever. These days it's also pretty difficult to find a Girlfriend if you live at home.
It's just the feeling of being trapped. Nearly half of what I make goes to paying for my car and car insurance.
My dad's girlfriend just lost her job and they live together. They don't know how they're going to make it and that's pressing down on me. I'm thinking of trying to get a second job to help them out.
I dunno, this stuff isn't all that bad compared to some people's problems. I'm just depressed and lonely.