The Wanderer
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- Nov 14, 2020
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What do I have to be depressed about... hm... well... lets see...
- I live alone and rarely go out. Even before covid.
- I have no friends. I have three people I barely talk to online who wouldn't know if I disappeared.
- I have achieved really nothing career-wise so far.
-My inner monologue tells me to kill myself constantly. I imagine situations where I am another person, free from the endless shitstorm that made me like this. In those daydreams I'm just a normal person with a wife and a kid.... and they're proud of me. He tells me to read him a story and I feel the ghost of the feeling of contentment that salves the emptiness for a short time. But who I am today could never have that... I am too broken and too mutilated. I keep going out of spite, a stubborn refusal to give in, a faint hope that I can still go down swinging. That maybe I can still end better than I began..
[font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]- I really don't have anyone who cares what happens to me. Which, you know, is fair enough. Its not like I meet many people.[/font]
[font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]- People seem to generally not warm to me. Which I never really got, I mean, I always try to be warm and humorous.
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[font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]Anyway. I'm fed and healthy. I suppose thats something.
I just really would like to have a laugh with someone. [/font]
- I live alone and rarely go out. Even before covid.
- I have no friends. I have three people I barely talk to online who wouldn't know if I disappeared.
- I have achieved really nothing career-wise so far.
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[font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]- I really don't have anyone who cares what happens to me. Which, you know, is fair enough. Its not like I meet many people.[/font]
[font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]- People seem to generally not warm to me. Which I never really got, I mean, I always try to be warm and humorous.
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[font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]Anyway. I'm fed and healthy. I suppose thats something.
I just really would like to have a laugh with someone. [/font]