Does anyone here feel like a loser?

[Just Games]

I used to feel like a total loser going from paycheck to paycheck in the mundane office environment that I settled for after dropping out of university, mainly because of my crippling social anxiety .
But by chance being made redundant with money to start it I created my own business from scratch,oh why oh why didn't I study it at college, in the field that I loved since I was five. The passion to make my business work and to pay my bills I feel like a winner more than a loser.

 

[M_also_lonely]

Sometimes. But then I take a look at the people who have what I wish I had, and they are in the same misery as I am. For something else.

 

[Mike01]

Yes.

 

[TheSkaFish]

I used to feel like a total loser going from paycheck to paycheck in the mundane office environment that I settled for after dropping out of university, mainly because of my crippling social anxiety .
But by chance being made redundant with money to start it I created my own business from scratch,oh why oh why didn't I study it at college, in the field that I loved since I was five. The passion to make my business work and to pay my bills I feel like a winner more than a loser.

I would say that running your own business in a field you love makes you a winner too.

If you don't mind sharing, what is that field? And it's cool that you knew you loved it since you were five. I wish I could find that one thing that I felt sure I could do well, that I also genuinely wanted to do, found satisfying and fulfilling.

 

[LoserGamer]

me i'm a total wack job and dumbest of losers, the lowest of the lowest, the ugly dirty filthy scumbag on the block, the KING OF PORNHUB WATCHERS [ I dink I watched over 1 million video's and my pee pee is always sore ] my dumb ass twitter @gamer73700

 

[LoserGamer]

I should start a onlyfans I suck so much I should make a "career" on sucking actual

 

[Prsffy]

"Have you ever dealt with so much rejection, either from people, jobs, applying for jobs, relationships, family, friends, whatever, that after a while you start to convince yourself that you are just invisible and not wanted? That there must be something wrong with you? That in fact you may be cursed, because no matter how hard you try, no matter how much extra mile you go, that nobody gives a honeysuckle?"

Every single day. When I wake up in the morning I know that nothing will get any better until I go to sleep again.

I honestly just wish that God would take me home. I could never take my own life...never, but that doesn't mean that I want to continue living.

I feel this way 90% of the time. I just feel nothing. Don’t want to wake up, time goes slow, I seat snd watch tv because life is boring. No body calls me, I call people because want to pass the time. I know slot of people but they never contact me. I feel useless and lonely and unwanted.

 

[Just Games]

I would say that running your own business in a field you love makes you a winner too.

If you don't mind sharing, what is that field? And it's cool that you knew you loved it since you were five. I wish I could find that one thing that I felt sure I could do well, that I also genuinely wanted to do, found satisfying and fulfilling.

I love plants.You seem to have alot of interests Skafish .Alot of people fall by the wayside losing their business especially during the pandemic..try and start small don't buy loads of new gear until you sure can make a living from it. I started mine alongside my office job then got made redundant during the recession. I used my payoff bought second hand,and I still do.Hope you find enjoyment in a job you enjoy one day too.

 

[Azariah]

hhhmmmm... I remember I made a thread with the exact same title.....

I used to but not anymore.

 

[Paths]

I don't know how relevant it is to respond to the original post after 15 pages of replies.

But I do feel similar feelings to what you are describing, but perhaps for not the exact same reasons.

I have learned who I am and what I like, and I feel those things generally don't fit in with modern society. I do not enjoy much about the US culture (and possibly most cultures). I feel our cultures have been intentionally misled and tainted, and people's interests are based off of this poor influence.

What I basically feel like is that my interests are not attractive to most people's, and many of their interests and activities are not attractive to me. So this situation gives me the feeling of being out of place, not belonging, feeling invisible at times, etc.

I know there are people out there that are like me, but there aren't enough of us to be likely to find each other, and most of us are hidden away, having given up on humanity and society, and we often don't discuss the way we see things and how we feel, because it isolates us even more from people.

I have lost hope to a great extent. I often see people I am attracted to, genuinely good people with beautiful souls, but I always feel that they aren't right for any form of friendship for me. Regardless of how good they are, they typically are just different in ways that I feel a lack of a certain type of connection that I desire.

I am willing to admit that the problem is with me, and that the world isn't going to change, but when I have tried to change and to adapt, it hasn't worked well for me, and has left me in a place I don't want to be.

Perhaps it is just some kind of personality disorder. I don't know. Perhaps a lot of it has to do with our ailing culture, and how it alienates those who don't follow along its ways.

I am not the type of person to give up. I always analyze and assess what can be done, but I have felt this way long enough that I have come to believe that I am not someone people have interest in spending time with, and it seems the majority of people I have no interest in sharing my time with as well.

So I spend my days reading what people say, what they think, watching people and listening to people. Some people I like, even though I feel that I wouldn't connect well with them, and many people dishearten me.

I have found this forum with people who may not be very much like me in some ways, but they feel similar to me in their social experience. Perhaps it is comforting, though I don't know how helpful it is. But I guess it's the best I've got now, so I am happy to read and participate with people in similar situations as me.

To all of you who feel like ghosts drifting through life unnoticed, I do sincerely wish you find genuine lasting connection with others that you desire and need. And for those of us who are too damaged to be able to obtain that, I wish you healing and discovery of the wisdom and truth of life that can lead you to the path that you seek.

Sorry for the long post, but for what it's worth, it seems therapeutic to be able to share and express this feeling that many of us seems to experience.