Does anyone was a weirdo around people and know feels much more normal ?

[ManDss]

It wasnt a better way to say it. Im 30 now. Ive been always a weird guy in the social aspect. Its a long story, gonna skip about my childhood. But when I was 22 I think or 21 I went first time to university, I had some friends I met because I wanted to join a band and I met them (people older than me, on their 30s). The thing is that I always had troubles socializing. I had friends, and could meet people. But... its hard to explain, I never fixed well. Even with my friends, I had times where I wasnt in the same page they were. And many times I like my friends, but I just didnt like at all their friends and I couldntbget along with them.

Sometimes I expected too much from my friends. Ive always have different interests than most people, I like "intelectual" things so my friends seemed too shallow and uninteresting for me, Ive been an obssesive. I started moving away from my friends because felt so bored with them. Music made me meet some friends, but then I just couldnt have an interesting talk about music with them, their words were just so uninteresting for me.

Anyway, Ive been also a weird person in other social situations too. Talking with people I dont know, etc.

The thing is now I feel pretty normal. I always felt so different to the rest, and with time, thinking and processing my life, now I feel more conected to people. Its like I found "how to live", and "how I can be". Time ago I was just a mess inside my mind. Now I feel I know howbI want to live, and Ive figured out people more.

I still feel "different" from the rest. My interests are very particular. I mean... about music, Im the kind of guy that goes alone to hear a classical synphonic, analyze the synphonic, and plays music alone, most people just listen whatever trash is on the radio. I look for foreigner films from small European countries. I think about psychology, do a research, I download a paper and spend some time reading it and thinking about it. Most people just dont do that.

But anyways, someone relates to this ?

 

[Finished]

I've always felt weird and odd. Some people really get weird vibes from me too. My friend's best friend said he couldn't be around me because I was weird. But, he couldn't pinpoint any one thing. I even helped the guy several times. But, he just didn't want to be around me. I have found that most people feel that way about me. But, there are a few that don't seem to pick up on that. So, I always tried to be really nice to them.

But, now that I'm old, I'm just some old weird dude that people try to avoid.

 

[Loner_Wolf]

Boy, don’t I know it. I was the weird kid in school and now I’m the weird guy at work. Most of my coworkers avoid me like I’m a leper, only talking to me if a bathroom needs to be cleaned. Yes, I’m a custodian. Maybe I smell like the bathrooms I clean, but I think my coworkers want nothing to do with me for the same reason no one in school or at my other jobs did, I’m just weird to them.

 

[Kamaione]

It's not exactly the same, but I did mention somewhere on here that I was an outcast at school. And my whole life I have pretty much felt like other people knew what was going on and either I didn't or I was a step behind on finding out. It's not been easy, and I do occasionally still have feelings as if I don't belong, but since I exist, perhaps that is enough and I don't have to fill any niche. In a way, it makes the people who do stick by me that much more special. I don't know the originator of the quote, but I take this to heart: A friend is one who comes in when the rest of the world has gone out.

 

[user 139760]

Always been different. I relish it. Others around me have come to view it the dame way, too.
It's always what you make of it.