It wasnt a better way to say it. Im 30 now. Ive been always a weird guy in the social aspect. Its a long story, gonna skip about my childhood. But when I was 22 I think or 21 I went first time to university, I had some friends I met because I wanted to join a band and I met them (people older than me, on their 30s). The thing is that I always had troubles socializing. I had friends, and could meet people. But... its hard to explain, I never fixed well. Even with my friends, I had times where I wasnt in the same page they were. And many times I like my friends, but I just didnt like at all their friends and I couldntbget along with them.
Sometimes I expected too much from my friends. Ive always have different interests than most people, I like "intelectual" things so my friends seemed too shallow and uninteresting for me, Ive been an obssesive. I started moving away from my friends because felt so bored with them. Music made me meet some friends, but then I just couldnt have an interesting talk about music with them, their words were just so uninteresting for me.
Anyway, Ive been also a weird person in other social situations too. Talking with people I dont know, etc.
The thing is now I feel pretty normal. I always felt so different to the rest, and with time, thinking and processing my life, now I feel more conected to people. Its like I found "how to live", and "how I can be". Time ago I was just a mess inside my mind. Now I feel I know howbI want to live, and Ive figured out people more.
I still feel "different" from the rest. My interests are very particular. I mean... about music, Im the kind of guy that goes alone to hear a classical synphonic, analyze the synphonic, and plays music alone, most people just listen whatever trash is on the radio. I look for foreigner films from small European countries. I think about psychology, do a research, I download a paper and spend some time reading it and thinking about it. Most people just dont do that.
But anyways, someone relates to this ?
Sometimes I expected too much from my friends. Ive always have different interests than most people, I like "intelectual" things so my friends seemed too shallow and uninteresting for me, Ive been an obssesive. I started moving away from my friends because felt so bored with them. Music made me meet some friends, but then I just couldnt have an interesting talk about music with them, their words were just so uninteresting for me.
Anyway, Ive been also a weird person in other social situations too. Talking with people I dont know, etc.
The thing is now I feel pretty normal. I always felt so different to the rest, and with time, thinking and processing my life, now I feel more conected to people. Its like I found "how to live", and "how I can be". Time ago I was just a mess inside my mind. Now I feel I know howbI want to live, and Ive figured out people more.
I still feel "different" from the rest. My interests are very particular. I mean... about music, Im the kind of guy that goes alone to hear a classical synphonic, analyze the synphonic, and plays music alone, most people just listen whatever trash is on the radio. I look for foreigner films from small European countries. I think about psychology, do a research, I download a paper and spend some time reading it and thinking about it. Most people just dont do that.
But anyways, someone relates to this ?