Thank you guys for the kind words. It makes me feel better knowing that some people do still care about others. Bubblebeam I'm on Discord if you decide to log on, I'm sorry I didn't say anything before but I really didn't want to talk to anyone with the way I was feeling.
My family pretty much is a big mess. Things happened in the past between my parents, so they hate each other even though they're still together. They each seem to expect the other to do certain things, so a lot of times nothing seems to get done. For example earlier I asked my mom why I was never told about my grandma and she blamed my dad, and my dad will probably blame her for it. My parents still treat me like I'm a kid, so I guess they assume I can't handle anything they tell me so they never seem to tell me anything.
We used to live in southern Indiana and my grandma lived nearby in Kentucky, practically right on the other side of the Ohio River, so it was a short trip and I would see her every weekend. As years went by we had to move to New York because of my dad's job so visiting became hard to do, and to be honest I've always hated talking on the phone so I never called. I would still get cards for things like birthdays and holidays from my grandparents, but once my grandpa died (which will be 10 years ago in December) those stopped too. I just wish I made more effort to keep in contact now, because I really loved my grandparents and I miss them so much.
It's funny that you call the rest of my family ********, I'll give you an example of why you're right. As a kid my dad never did anything for us, he spent what he earned at work all on himself. My grandma had to not only take my mom grocery shopping and buy everything we needed as a family, but she also had to buy pretty much anything that me and my sister needed as well. Oh and let's not forget to mention that my dad also didn't go to his own parents' funerals, so yeah if that isn't an ******* I don't know what is.