lonelydude
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Hello,
Im not really good at expressing my life experiences , but I will try mt best. Like alot of you i was plagued by this problem called lonelyness for a long while (from when i was 15). No matter how hard i tried to convince myself, I never seemed or felt like a misfit or social outcast by any standards, yet i was lonely....Where did all my friends go to?
Anyway im 19 now and I feel like the happiest person on the planet, im not lonely in anyway now and Im so upbeat and motivated all the time. If anyone tells you that depression cannot be cured, slap them because IM LIVING PROOF, DEPRESSION CAN BE DEFEATED ONCE AND FOR ALL. And sometimes doing so is not even that hard, it just requires us to do something that we normally wouldnt consider.
Back to my story (which I will keep brief) I used to have a good group of friends in primary school high school which is where the 'problems' started. To keep a very long and arduous story short, a few ppl who used to be very close to me decided to demean me in everyway (ignoring me, trying to spread bad stuff about me even when i was a good friend to them) They even tried to literally 'steal' away the few ppl i was close to. The height of this behavior was that one of them that they even tried to publish false stuff about me in the school's magazines. Yep they did all that for nothing i can think of. I literally spent months figuring out what I ever did to them that they do this kind of honeysuckle to me but i could never figure out anything, and still cant....
All of this seems really sad and depressing doesn it? well it was, but i came to this site for a while ( a few months) and posted on the forums and came to the chatroom, that really helped me alot all thanks to you guys .
One thing that I always believed in was that what goes around comes around...what you sow so shall you reap. You dont necessarily need to believe in God to believe this phenomena, its just how the world works.
Now what happened to me and those guys? well after graduating from school I went to this really great college which has extremely nice and friendly ppl and have made tonnes of friends here. This I think is the best time of my life and am loving every moment here. My lonelyness, my depression , both are gone and im 100% sure theyll never come back again!!!
And what happened to those guys? Well 2 of them are tkaing gap years and rotting at home because they got rejected from every college they applied (1 other guy is in a CC but again he wanted to go to some ivy league in the first place lol) and the one guy who wanted to publish honeysuckle about me in the magazines never even got the magazine to be published and is now remembered as the crappiest editor in my school's history lol!!! (hes also taking a gap year). And 1 of them is in college but hes really depressed in it. All of these guys wanted to go to the best colleges in the country VERY VERY BADLY but now look where they are LOL!
So for me what cured my depression was a change in location (my college is FARRR away from my home) and to add to that the fact that those ppl who just wanted to prove themselves superior to me and make me feel like a loser are now crying over their dreams lol
What goes around comes around...Indeed.
Now what made me come back to this forum and post this story? Forum loyalty? Yes, but even more than that, i was browsing my facebook HOME today and saw one of them had uploaded pictures of those ppl in some house party ( there were 2 ppl in the pictures of the party who were not really their friends , but those guys invited them just coz they were my friends). Yep pictures of them having fun...and normally if that had happened I would get even more depressed for a long time...but wait...this didnt happen this time....Why? because I know those guys are sad and depressed. No matter how much they pose for the camera, no matter how much they pretend to laugh and enjoy, I know they would give anything to be in the position I am. I know that those guys are rotting, their dreams are shattered, and from a few ppl ive heard that they barely have anymore friends outside themselves LOL!
What an ironic twist of fate. Anyway thats that, i dont really give a honeysuckle about them anymore.
Now im totally cured of my lonelyness and depression. It happened to me , and YES it can and WILL Happen to you. My decision to go to college away from home (and in effect change my location) made this possible, and a decision like that or something similar might change your life for the better as well. Again, I am living proof that depression can be conquered and defeated forever. Just make sure that during the time your depressed, make sure you know that this phase of depression is temporary because thinking like that is what defeats depression , IT DID FOR ME!
I sincerely hope from the bottom of my heart that you guys are able to conquer your problems soon and forever remain happy just like the way you deserve to be.
God bless you all, and please feel free to PM me if you feel like talking to me!
Thanks and Goodbye!
Im not really good at expressing my life experiences , but I will try mt best. Like alot of you i was plagued by this problem called lonelyness for a long while (from when i was 15). No matter how hard i tried to convince myself, I never seemed or felt like a misfit or social outcast by any standards, yet i was lonely....Where did all my friends go to?
Anyway im 19 now and I feel like the happiest person on the planet, im not lonely in anyway now and Im so upbeat and motivated all the time. If anyone tells you that depression cannot be cured, slap them because IM LIVING PROOF, DEPRESSION CAN BE DEFEATED ONCE AND FOR ALL. And sometimes doing so is not even that hard, it just requires us to do something that we normally wouldnt consider.
Back to my story (which I will keep brief) I used to have a good group of friends in primary school high school which is where the 'problems' started. To keep a very long and arduous story short, a few ppl who used to be very close to me decided to demean me in everyway (ignoring me, trying to spread bad stuff about me even when i was a good friend to them) They even tried to literally 'steal' away the few ppl i was close to. The height of this behavior was that one of them that they even tried to publish false stuff about me in the school's magazines. Yep they did all that for nothing i can think of. I literally spent months figuring out what I ever did to them that they do this kind of honeysuckle to me but i could never figure out anything, and still cant....
All of this seems really sad and depressing doesn it? well it was, but i came to this site for a while ( a few months) and posted on the forums and came to the chatroom, that really helped me alot all thanks to you guys .
One thing that I always believed in was that what goes around comes around...what you sow so shall you reap. You dont necessarily need to believe in God to believe this phenomena, its just how the world works.
Now what happened to me and those guys? well after graduating from school I went to this really great college which has extremely nice and friendly ppl and have made tonnes of friends here. This I think is the best time of my life and am loving every moment here. My lonelyness, my depression , both are gone and im 100% sure theyll never come back again!!!
And what happened to those guys? Well 2 of them are tkaing gap years and rotting at home because they got rejected from every college they applied (1 other guy is in a CC but again he wanted to go to some ivy league in the first place lol) and the one guy who wanted to publish honeysuckle about me in the magazines never even got the magazine to be published and is now remembered as the crappiest editor in my school's history lol!!! (hes also taking a gap year). And 1 of them is in college but hes really depressed in it. All of these guys wanted to go to the best colleges in the country VERY VERY BADLY but now look where they are LOL!
So for me what cured my depression was a change in location (my college is FARRR away from my home) and to add to that the fact that those ppl who just wanted to prove themselves superior to me and make me feel like a loser are now crying over their dreams lol
What goes around comes around...Indeed.
Now what made me come back to this forum and post this story? Forum loyalty? Yes, but even more than that, i was browsing my facebook HOME today and saw one of them had uploaded pictures of those ppl in some house party ( there were 2 ppl in the pictures of the party who were not really their friends , but those guys invited them just coz they were my friends). Yep pictures of them having fun...and normally if that had happened I would get even more depressed for a long time...but wait...this didnt happen this time....Why? because I know those guys are sad and depressed. No matter how much they pose for the camera, no matter how much they pretend to laugh and enjoy, I know they would give anything to be in the position I am. I know that those guys are rotting, their dreams are shattered, and from a few ppl ive heard that they barely have anymore friends outside themselves LOL!
What an ironic twist of fate. Anyway thats that, i dont really give a honeysuckle about them anymore.
Now im totally cured of my lonelyness and depression. It happened to me , and YES it can and WILL Happen to you. My decision to go to college away from home (and in effect change my location) made this possible, and a decision like that or something similar might change your life for the better as well. Again, I am living proof that depression can be conquered and defeated forever. Just make sure that during the time your depressed, make sure you know that this phase of depression is temporary because thinking like that is what defeats depression , IT DID FOR ME!
I sincerely hope from the bottom of my heart that you guys are able to conquer your problems soon and forever remain happy just like the way you deserve to be.
God bless you all, and please feel free to PM me if you feel like talking to me!
Thanks and Goodbye!